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11:30am.
It’s hard to constantly keep in mind the idea of the necessity of doing exercises when one wakes up at 6:40am, having less than six hours of sleep. Yet, I’m gonna try to do them in the evening. Anyway, today, I have just a couple of hours for work, and the first thing I’m gonna do is to publish and watch my second video.
3:20pm.
Wow! I couldn’t even imagine how fascinating it is to make a 10-minute video out of a 30-minute stream of consciousness. I cut off all the irrelevant parts, so that my boring talk, which I didn’t expect to get anything valuable from, turned out unbelievably persuasive. And the truth is that I can make as many of these talks as I like. Now, the task is to learn how to hook up the attention of an audience within the first 30 seconds so that at least 20% of those who are gonna watch it will become curious, get through the whole video and subscribe to the channel. This girl, Cathrin, did a nice job teaching me how to develop emotional connections with an audience and how to use failures to one’s advantage. My channel has been growing unnoticeably for three years; if I attract enough attention and people start talking about it, it’ll blow up. Now, I have to figure out how to connect all my videos to one another in a subtle way. I’m getting really engrossed in what I’m doing.
I have another diary in which I used to reflect on the speaking club’s conversations. I’m gonna use the diary to work on my videos instead of doing it here. The content for the next video is already made, so what’s remained is to make it attractive by adding certain features.
It seems my relationship with A is broken. I don’t wanna maintain it further. She distracts me too much. She gets angry and irritating literally about everything. At night, I touched her when we were in bed, and probably it was inappropriate, but she called it «äåðãàòü», saying that she didn’t like it. I said that it was a touch, not what she called it, and we started arguing. In a few seconds, she got mad. I said I didn’t mean to upset her and proposed that I would go home, since it was already midnight and she had to wake up at 6:40am next morning. Besides, I had a little headache and didn’t want to wake up at her noisy alarm clock. So I said I’ll go home and she asked me to leave the key from her apartment. I said it was stupid, proposing that if I left the key, I would see no reason to come back. She insisted, I left the key and went home.
Why do I allow her to treat me like shit? What am I doing with her? Love? Really? C’mon!
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