Ray Bradbury. The Wilderness

                Ray Bradbury

                The Wilderness

     "Oh, the Good Time has come at last -"
     It  was  twilight,  and  Janice and Leonora packed steadily in their summer
house,  singing  songs, eating little, and holding to each other when necessary.
But they never glanced at the window where the night gathered deep and the stars
came out bright and cold.
     "Listen!" said Janice.
     A  sound  like  a steamboat down the river, but it was a rocket in the sky.
And  beyond  that  -  banjos playing? No, only the summer-night crickets in this
year  2003.  Ten  thousand  sounds  breathed  through  the town and the weather.
Janice, head bent, listened. Long, long ago, 1849, this very street had breathed
the  voices  of  ventriloquists,  preachers,  fortunetellers,  fools,  scholars,
gamblers,  gathered  at  this  selfsame  Independence, Missouri. Waiting for the
moist  earth to bake and the great tidal grasses to come up heavy enough to hold
the  weight  of  their  carts, their wagons, their indiscriminate destinies, and
their dreams.


     "Oh, the Good Time has come at last,
      To Mars we are a-going, sir,
     Five Thousand Women in the sky,
      That's quite a springtime sowing, sir!"

     "That's an old Wyoming song," said Leonora. "Change the words and it's fine
for 2003."
     Janice  lifted  a  matchbox of food pills, calculating the totals of things
carried  in  those  high-axled,  tall-bedded  wagons.  For each man, each woman,
incredible  tonnages!  Hams,  bacon  slabs,  sugar,  salt,  flour, dried fruits,
"pilot"  bread,  citric acid, water, ginger, pepper - a list as big as the land!
Yet  here,  today, pills that fit a wrist watch fed you not from Fort Laramie to
Hangtown, but all across a wilderness of stars.
     Janice  threw  wide the closet door and almost screamed. Darkness and night
and all the spaces between the stars looked out at her.
     Long  years  ago  two  things  had  happened.  Her  sister  had locked her,
shrieking,  in  a  closet.  And,  at a party, playing hide-and-seek, she had run
through  the  kitchen  and  into  a long dark hall. But wasn't a hall. It was an
unlit  stair  well,  a swallowing blackness. She had run out upon empty air. She
had  pedaled  her feet, screamed, and fallen! Fallen in midnight blackness. Into
the cellar. It took a long while, a heartbeat, to fall. And she had smothered in
that  closet a long, long time without daylight, without friends, no one to hear
her  screamings.  Away from everything, locked in darkness. Falling in darkness.
     The two memories.
     Now,  with  the  closet  door wide, with darkness like a velvet shroud hung
before  her  to  be  stroked by a trembling hand, with the darkness like a black
panther breathing there, looking at her with unlit eyes, the two memories rushed
out.  Space  and  a  falling.  Space  and  being locked away, screaming. She and
Leonora working steadily, packing, being careful not to glance out the window at
the frightening Milky Way and the vast emptiness. Only to have the long-familiar
closet, with its private night, remind them at last of their destiny.
     This  was  how  it  would  be,  out there, sliding toward the stars, in the
night, in the great hideous black closet, screaming, but no one to hear. Falling
forever  among  meteor  clouds and godless comets. Down the elevator shaft. Down
the nightmare coal chute into nothingness.
     She  screamed. None of it came out of her mouth. It collided upon itself in
her  chest  and head. She screamed. She slammed the closet door! She lay against
it!  She felt the darkness breathe and yammer at the door and she held it tight,
eyes  watering.  She  stood  there  a  long  time, until the trembling vanished,
watching  Leonora  work.  And the hysteria, thus ignored, drained away and away,
and  at last was gone. A wrist watch ticked, with a clean sound of normality, in
the room.

     "Sixty million miles." She moved at last to the window as if it were a deep
well.  "I  can't  believe that men on Mars, tonight, are building towns, waiting
for us."
     "The only thing to believe is catching our Rocket tomorrow."
     Janice raised a white gown like a ghost in the room.
     "Strange, strange. To marry - on another world."
     "Let's get to bed."
     "No!  The  call  comes  at midnight. I couldn't sleep, thinking how to tell
Will  I've  decided  to take the Mars Rocket. Oh, Leonora, think of it, my voice
travelling  sixty  million  miles on the lightphone to him. I changed my mind so
quick - I'm scared!"
     "Our last night on Earth."
     Now they really knew and accepted it; now the knowledge had found them out.
They were going away, and they might never come back. They were leaving the town
of  Independence  in  the  state  of Missouri on the continent of North America,
surrounded  by one ocean which was the Atlantic and another the Pacific, none of
which  could  be  put in their travelling cases. They had shrunk from this final
knowledge. Now it was facing them. And they were struck numb.
     "Our  children,  they won't be Americans, or Earth people at all. We'll all
be Martians, the rest of our lives."
     "I don't want to go!" cried Janice suddenly.
     The panic froze her.
     "I'm  afraid!  The space, the darkness, the Rocket, the meteors! Everything
gone! Why should I go out there?"
     Leonora took hold of her shoulders and held her close, rocking her. "It's a
new world. It's like the old days. The men first and the women after."
     "Why, why should I go, tell me!"
     "Because,"  said Leonora at last, quietly, seating her on the bed, "Will is
up there."
     His name was good to hear. Janice quieted.
     "These  men  make it so hard," said Leonora. "Used to be if a woman ran two
hundred  miles  for  a man it was something. Then they made it a thousand miles.
And now they put a whole universe between us. But that can't stop us, can it?"
     "I'm afraid I'll be a fool on the Rocket."
     "I'll  be  a  fool with you." Leonora got up. "Now, let's walk around town,
let's see everything one last time."
     Janice  stared out at the town. "Tomorrow night this'll all be here, but we
won't.  People'll  wake  up, eat, work, sleep, wake again, but we won't know it,
and they'll never miss us."
     Leonora  and  Janice  moved  around each other as if they couldn't find the
     "Come on."
     They  opened  the door, switched off the lights, stepped out, and shut the.
door behind them.

     In  the  sky  there  was  a  great  coming-in and coming-in. Vast flowering
motions,  huge whistlings and whirlings, snow-storms falling. Helicopters, white
flakes,  dropping quietly. From west and east and north and south the women were
arriving, arriving. Through all the night sky you saw helicopters blizzard down.
The hotels were full, private homes were making accommodations, tent cities rose
in meadows and pastures like strange, ugly flowers, and the town and the country
were  warm  with  more than summer tonight. Warm with women's pink faces and the
sunburnt faces of new men watching the sky. Beyond the hills rockets tried their
fire,  and  a  sound  like  a  giant  organ,  all its keys pressed upon at once,
shuddered  every  crystal window and every hidden bone. You felt it in your jaw,
your toes, your fingers, a shivering.
     Leonora and Janice sat in the drugstore among unfamiliar women.
     "You-ladies   look   very   pretty,  but  you  sure  look  sad,"  said  the
soda-fountain man.
     "Two chocolate malteds." Leonora smiled for both of them, as if Janice were
     They  gazed  at  the  chocolate drink as if it were a rare museum painting.
Malts would be scarce for many years on Mars.
     Janice fussed in her purse and took out an envelope reluctantly and laid it
on the marble counter.
     "This  is  from Will to me. It came in the Rocket mail two days ago. It was
this  that  made  up  my mind for me, made me decide to go. I didn't tell you. I
want you to see it now. Go ahead, read the note."
     Leonora shook the note out of the envelope and read it aloud:

     "Dear Janice: This is our house if you decide to come to Mars. Will."

     Leonora  tapped  the  envelope  again, and a colour photograph dropped out,
glistening, on the counter. It was a picture of a house, a dark, mossy, ancient,
caramel-brown,  comfortable house with red flowers and green cool fems bordering
it, and a disreputably hairy ivy on the porch.
     "But, Janice!"
     "This is a picture of your house, here on Earth, here on Elm Street!"
     "No. Look close."
     And  they looked again, together, and on both sides of the comfortable dark
house  and  behind,  it  was  scenery that was not Earth scenery. The soil was a
strange  colour  of  violet, and the grass was the faintest bit red, and the sky
glowed like a gray diamond, and a strange crooked tree grew to one side, looking
like an old woman with crystals in her white hair.
     "That's  the house Will's built for me," said Janice, "on Mars. It helps to
look at it. All yesterday, when I had the chance, alone, and was most afraid and
panicky, I took out this picture and looked at it."
     They  both  gazed  at  the dark comfortable house sixty million miles away,
familiar  but unfamiliar, old but new, a yellow light shining in the right front
parlour window.
     "That  man  Will,"  said  Leonora,  nodding her head, "knows just what he's
     They  finished  their  drinks.  Outside,  a  vast  warm  crowd of strangers
wandered by and the "snow" fell steadily in the summer sky.

     They  bought  many  silly  things  to  take with them, bags of lemon candy,
glossy  women's  magazines,  fragile perfumes; and then they walked out into the
town  and  rented  two  belted  jackets  that  refused  to recognize gravity and
imitated  only  the  moth,  touched  the  delicate controls, and felt themselves
whispered  like  white  blossom  petals over the town. "Anywhere," said Leonora,
"anywhere at all."
     They  let  the  wind  blow them where it would; they let the wind take them
through  the night of summer apple trees and the night of warm preparation, over
the  lovely  town, over the houses of childhood and other days, over schools and
avenues,  over creeks and meadows and farms so familiar that each grain of wheat
was  a  golden  coin.  They  blew  as  leaves  must  blow  below the threat of a
fire-wind, with warning whispers and summer lightning crackling among the folded
hills.  They  saw  the  milk-dust  country  roads where not so long ago they had
drifted  in moonlit helicopters in great whorls of sound spiraling down to touch
beside cool night streams with the young men who were now gone.
     They  floated  in  an  immense sigh above a town already made remote by the
little  space between themselves and the earth, a town receding behind them in a
black  river  and  coming  up  in  a  tidal  wave  of  lights  and colour ahead,
untouchable  and a dream now, already smeared in their eyes with nostalgia, with
a panic of memory that began before the thing itself was gone.
     Blown  quietly,  eddying,  they  gazed  secretly at a hundred faces of dear
friends  they were leaving behind, the lamplit people held and framed by windows
which  slid  by  on the wind, it seemed; all of Time breathing them along. There
was no tree they did not examine for old confessions of love carved and whittled
there, no sidewalk they did not skim across as over fields of mica-snow. For the
first  time  they  knew  their  town was beautiful and the lonely lights and the
ancient  bricks  beautiful,  and  they  both felt their eyes grow large with the
beauty  of  this  feast they were giving themselves. All floated upon an evening
carrousel,  with  fitful  drifts  of music wafting up here and there, and voices
calling and murmuring from houses that were whitely haunted by television.
     The  two  women passed like needles, sewing one tree to the next with their
perfume.  Their  eyes were too full, and yet they kept putting away each detail,
each  shadow, each solitary oak and elm, each passing car upon the small snaking
streets  below,  until not only their eyes but their heads and then their hearts
were too full.
     I  feel  like  I'm  dead,  thought Janice, and in the graveyard on a spring
night  and  everything  alive but me and everyone moving and ready to go on with
life  without  me.  It's like I felt each spring when I was sixteen, passing the
graveyard  and  weeping for them because they were dead and it didn't seem fair,
on  nights  as  soft as that, that I was alive. I was guilty of living. And now,
here,  tonight, I feel they have taken me from the graveyard and let me go above
the  town  just once more to see what it's like to be living, to be a town and a
people, before they slam the black door on me again.
     Softly,  softly,  like  two white paper lanterns on a night wind, the women
moved  over  their  lifetime and their past, and over the meadows where the tent
cities glowed and the highway where supply trucks would be clustered and running
until dawn. They hovered above it all for a long tune.

     The  courthouse  clock  was  booming  eleven forty-five when they came like
spider  webs  floating  from  the stars, touching on the moonlit pavement before
Janice's  old  house. The city was asleep, and Janice's house waited for them to
come in searching for their sleep, which was not there.
     "Is  this us, here?" asked Janice. "Janice Smith and Leonora Holmes, in the
year 2003?"
     Janice licked her lips and stood straight. "I wish it was some other year."
     "1492?  1612?"  Leonora  sighed, and the wind in the trees sighed with her,
moving  away. "It's always Columbus Day or Plymouth Rock Day, and I'll be darned
if I know what we women can do about it."
     "Be old maids."
     "Or do just what we're doing."
     They  opened the door of the warm night house, the sounds of the town dying
slowly in their ears. As they shut the door, the phone began to ring.
     "The-call!" cried Janice, running.
     Leonora came into the bedroom after her and already Janice had the receiver
up  and  was saying, "Hello, hello!" And the operator in a far city was readying
the  immense  apparatus  which  would tie two worlds together, and the two women
waited,  one sitting and pale, the other standing, but just as pale, bent toward
     There  was a long pause, fall of stars and time, a waiting pause not unlike
the last three years for all of them. And now the moment had arrived, and it was
Janice's  turn  to  phone through millions upon millions of miles of meteors and
comets,  running  away  from the yellow sun which might boil or bum her words or
scorch  the  meaning  from them. But her voice went like a silver needle through
everything, in stitches of talking, across the big night, reverberating from the
moons  of  Mars.  And  then her voice found its way to a man in a room in a city
there on another world, five minutes by radio away. And her message was this:
     "Hello, Will. This is Janice!"
     She swallowed.
     "They say I haven't much time. A minute."
     She closed her eyes.
     "I  want  to talk slow, but they say talk fast and get it all in. So I want
to  say '- I've decided. I will come up there. I'll go on the Rocket tomorrow. I
will  come up there to you, after all. And I love you. I hope you can hear me. I
love you. It's been so long...."
     Her  voice  motioned on its way to that unseen world. Now, with the message
sent,  the  words  said,  she  wanted to call them back, to censor, to rearrange
them, to make a prettier sentence, a fairer explanation of her soul. But already
the words were bung between planets and if, by some cosmic radiation, they could
have been illuminated, caught fire in vaporous wonder there, her love would have
lit  a  dozen worlds and startled the night side of Earth into a premature dawn,
she  thought.  Now  the words were not hers at all, they belonged to space, they
belonged  to  no one until they arrived, and they were-travelling at one hundred
and eighty-six thousand miles a second to their des filiation.
     What  will  he  say to me! What will he say back in his minute of time? she
wondered.  She  fussed  with  and  twisted  the  watch  on  her  wrist,  and the
light-phone receiver on her ear crackled and space talked to her with electrical
jigs and dances and audible auroras.
     "Has he answered?" whispered Leonora.
     "Shhh!" said Janice, bending, as if sick.
     Then his voice came through space.
     "I hear him!" cried Janice.
     "What does he say?"
     The  voice  called  out  from Mars and took itself through the places where
there was no sunrise or sunset, but always the night with a sun in the middle of
the  blackness.  And  somewhere between Mars and Earth everything of the message
was lost, perhaps in a sweep of electrical gravity rushing by on the flood tides
of  a  meteor, or interfered with by a rain of silver meteors. In any event, the
small  words  and the unimportant words of the message were washed away. And his
voice came through saying only one word:
     "... love..."
     After  that  there  was the huge night again and the sound of stars turning
and suns whispering to themselves and the sound of her heart, like another world
in space, filling her earphones.
     "Did you hear him?" asked Leonora.
     Janice could only nod.
     "What did he say, what did he say?" cried Leonora.
     But  Janice  could  not  tell anyone; it was much too good to tell. She sat
listening  to  that  one word again and again, as her memory played it back. She
sat  listening,  while. Leonora took the phone-away from her without her knowing
it and put it down upon its hook.

     Then they were in bed and the lights out and the night wind blowing through
the  rooms  a  smell of the long journey in darkness and stars, and their voices
talking of tomorrow, and the days after tomorrow which would not be days at all,
but  day-nights  of timeless time; their voices faded away into sleep or wakeful
thinking, and Janice lay alone in her bed.
     Is  this  how  it was over a century ago, she wondered, when the women, the
night before, lay ready for sleep, or not ready, in the small towns of the East,
and heard the sound of horses in the night and the creak of the Conestoga wagons
ready  to  go, and the brooding of oxen under the trees, and the cry of children
already lonely before their time? All the sounds of arrivals and departures into
the  deep  forests  and  fields,  the blacksmiths working in their own red hells
through midnight? And the smell of bacons and hams ready for the journeying, and
the heavy feel of the wagons like ships foundering with goods, with water in the
wooden  kegs  to  tilt  and slop across prairies, and the chickens hysterical in
their slung-beneath-the-wagon crates, and the dogs running out to the wilderness
ahead  and,  fearful,  running back with a look of empty space in their eyes? Is
this,  then, how it was so long ago? On the rim of the precipice, on the edge of
the  cliff  of  stars.  In  their time the smell of buffalo, and in our time the
smell of the Rocket. Is this, then, how it was?
     And  she  decided,  as  sleep  assumed  the dreaming for her, that yes, yes
indeed,  very  much  so,  irrevocably,  this was as it had always been and would
forever continue to be.