Книга Не. Пропущенная глава 7 диез, 8 бемоль

Глава 7 диез. Глава 8 бемоль.
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          I am awake or am I not?

Psychedelic dreams I always see
It’s not a good idea to sleep with me,
As without knowing I will share
Them with you; - and the deepest nightmare
Of all my wreck less life will become
Our joint. No kidding, no fun.

You close the eyes hugging me and lying in bed –
- I open the door of the dream feeling sad.
And we holding hands enter the room
Of disgust, putridity and doom.
Everything looks normal, but in truth
The walls are mysterious, the air is smooth.

Some things don’t lie in their place,
I look in pale mirror and don’t see the face.
My childhood toys are once again here,
But now they don’t amuse, their smiles scare.
The light is on or off I don’t know,
However it doesn’t rain here and it doesn’t snow.

The river is splashing nearby,
We shouldn’t be afraid, we must try
To get out of here as fast as we can.
Otherwise we would get stuck forever in this sand
On the floor which is wet and….. Mice!
“Where are my parents?” I don’t have time to slice.

At least you are holding my hand……
No! You like Mud pour away. Every friend,
Who came with me to this dream
Changes here not even able for the last scream…
But that doesn’t really matter
Until I see a rotting hole of scatter…

Until my mother comes with her cheeks all grey,
I’m running towards her, in panic I say
“I love you, how much I love you!”
Her eyes are like bubble gum she likes to chew,
She cannot cry with them, but she can sew
A large ballet dress for 2 girls or a few.
Her breast is sharp, no milk it keeps,
She is not mine; - it’s me she seeks…
A cockroach and an insect on the shelf-
- My tongue falls into throat by itself……
I cannot stay. I feel worse at a minute.
Something is crawling at me! Somebody, please, kill it!

…

                My hands shake.
                Am I awake?
                Or am I not?
                - “No, you are not!”


- My mummy whispers through the lips.
  This something is near and it keeps
  Coming towards with a ball of grey
  Disgust to make me forever away.
  A ball, a hit and it is the dark end.
  Don’t sleep with me, my lovely friend.*
(2006.)



1. I am awake or am I not?

- psychedelic – психоделический.
- to share – поделиться.
- nightmare – кошмар.
- wreck less – разбитый.
- joint – общий, объединенный.
- disgust - отвращение, омерзение.
- putridity – гниль, моральное разложение.
- doom - рок, судьба.
- pale - мертвенно-бледный, тусклый, неясный.
- splash – брызганье, всплеск.
- get stuck – застрять, увязнуть.
- mice – мыши.
- slice – разрезать волны, резать ломтиками.
- mud – грязь.
- rotting hole of scatter – гниющая дыра рассеянных надежд.
- cheeks – щеки.
- bubble gum – жвачка.
- to chew – жевать.
- to sew – шить, пришивать.
- breast – грудь.
- cockroach – таракан.
- shelf – полка.
- to crawl – ползти.
- mummy – мамочка, мумия.
- a hit – попадание в цель.