Shadows

Shadows come into my room and I’m scared. Cause they are closer and closer, and you are not here. They want my lost soul, want to tear apart on pieces all of me. They are around of me and I feel them inside. Can’t you see it? I’m dieing! Shadows swallow me! And you are not here… cause you don’t care. Fear in my soul grows with every second, tears, which slide my demonic beautiful face, scare shadows and they go away. I’m sitting in the complete dark, so alone. Even death doesn’t want me, even you. Everyone don’t care, I’m just pure mistake and sin. I’m fallen angel, witch has no home, no friend, no Love…
   I am tired, all of that I ask it only yours sight. You are so-so far, you don’t hear my screams. You… I just love you with all power of my lost soul and cold heart. You are everything I want and dream about. But you don’t need to care or think about me, I know that you are not mine. But you must know that I’m yours! Forever! Or maybe I just want you believe in it, to believe in something, I don’t know.
  I think a lot about you, but can’t say anything. I dream of you, but can’t look on your face. All my love is just stupid dreams. Cause you never will look on me. I want to hold your hand, to drawn in your eyes. You love you without any fear.   
  Why everything is so difficult? I know that you will come, but it will be to late, cause shadows come back and swallow me. You enter in the room and see me dead. Than you will bury me. And dark light of my love will be free.
  Sometimes I think about my feeling… why can’t death save me? Because of you. You have power on everything. Even death must ask YOU before killing me.
  You… you the reason I live, I suffer, I love, I die… I’m so sorry of my existence. You are everything. You are my sun and moon. Sometimes I even scared, that I will forget about myself in this live. I know that this is wrong and I am sorry… but I can’t be different! You… you everything I want and hate.
  I never met you or know you, but my love will live for alternately.