Heart shout

I am ready to die
To all winds to spite
And snow will pass through soul
To me to spit on all
Blood so pleasantly follows from a vein
But I am still live
Time has not come yet to fall asleep
God likely will not forgive me
But the second chance always is
It is necessary only to forgive itself
And again good luck will be with you
Heart shout? Without him I do not want to live