Chapter 3-4

Chapter 3. The last day of childhood.

She doesn't want to cry, but she cries. Why? Because she's a child. Little stupid child. But she thinks it is enough. Today was the last day of her childhood. You see, she cannot be a child any time longer. She needs a help, she needs a support, she needs a love to be a child. She needs an Angel, she needs too much.
Today she have seen that all her problems are still with her. They live in her with comfort. She will fight with them (good luck!!). As a child she's very kind but stupid, smiling and open-hearted but lazy. As an adult she can be not so kind but she mustn't be so lazy. Nobody will help her in her life way. Nobody. Never. If she wants to do something she must do it herself. Without support her character is not suitable for her. She have to change it. She always was afraid of it. She doesn't like changes like this. But she have to do it if she wants to alive in this mad world and maybe after a long time you'll see her smiling and crying again but not now. Now it is enough. Now it seems so stupid.
Mum opens the door and asks her what is she doing. She answers nothing. Mum says that she needs her help after she'll finish her poetry. Poetry....She cannot write them....Don't cry, please, don't cry!!!....that's awful! Such a stupid girl! Yes, she is. But soon you'll see a hard-working and smart woman. She swears.



Chapter 4.
New life.
She cannot believe how naive she was. She'll be a child forever. She doesn't think it's bad to be a little bit childish. Some people believe they are very smart and serious but the truth is that they are absolutely boring. They couldn't make one minute decision. They have to plan everything. To her mind, it's not as interesting as not to have plans. Of course she does not mean not to have plans at all just be more flexible, to be able to cooperate with your plans, to change them in one moment, not to think about changes for very long time. To live right now and right there. Nowadays she has so many plans but she doesn't mind if she have to change them. She believes that her angel will always stay with her and help in any case.