a letter to her

- this is the first work on english, so i please you not to be so strict in judgment. -

 
 Would like to describe her in one succinct word, however probably i won't be able to do it and by thousands. Without being talented as writer i still would like to take risk of cutting my emotions by pen on notebook paper sheet.
 I have never thought, that somebody's hugs can be so necessary for me, so i was wrong. When i sense her arms, wrapping my neck, the universe is locking in the circle formed by them, the whole world is disappearing and my consciousness is leaving me. And every time when i touch her waist, it seems like this is a limit of my dream.
 No. It's not.
 Her lips are the limit. You not only dissolve your whole being in her kiss, but also completely drown in it. It was only one time and it'll never gonna happen again, but memories about it still disturb my mind, visions still visit me as i close my eyes.
 Her arms, her palms, her fingers...  We twisted them just once and then i lost my soul. I gave her my heart, fully understanding that she doesn't need it.
 Thoughts about her, though it's strange, warm me from the inside. I would have to feel pain, but not - everything, connected to her, brings me only warm and light.
 Except her silence. It hurts. More precisely - that i can't help her to cope with it. Yes, boredom and fatigue in those eyes - it's the saddest thing, that can ever be. It seems, like her beautiful chocolate brown eyes become darker on several shades.
 I would like to kiss her shoulders, feel her neck and her ears by my lips again, touch her arms, her body by my fingers. I'm going crazy over her, but this kind of madness i like. It inspires and pushes me to live.
 She saved me from myself, made me fall in love, and i enjoy those feelings as if i'm lying in a warm bath. I'm not gonna tell her about anything of it, because there will be nothing more than friendship.
 I must be satisfied with what i have; i'll burn cause of the wish to love her with all my soul, but i'll never start a conversation about what i feel.
 I don't want to destroy everything, because i really need her. More, than anyone else.