Just thoughts, shared in a private letter...

how are you?
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my friends often asking me how I can combine my Ortodoxal belives and going to Krisna's temple...
 As for  connections with God, the only sourse I could trust it is my dreams, very rarely I have like evidenses that God communicates with me,
 rarely because I could counter such cases only with fingers on my hands, like 1999, 2003, not often,
 maybe it is no nessesity to have it more often, but I miss such evidenses, they give me some encouragement in my life,
 or my approach to life, saying-you on a right path, or someOne is watching over you, hopefully not a BIG Brother, you know this expression:)?,, Last night I got a dream about my daughter: she tryed to put a fake cast on her arm like she need a serious reason not to go to school or sth like that, and she tryed to use a cement instead of cast, so i offered her a cast:), because it wold be difficult to cut a cement later on a hand:)- kind of stupid dream, but...maybe some shrink would find an explonation to it:)! What was most horrible in a dream, that neiborough with whom I argued before brought a huge plate with this cement to my daughter)
Other than that I voked up, without a special wish to do sth, so I just picked up goats milk to my mom, but had no enough time to bring it to her, so came with this milk to my uni, On my way I met a stray sheppard dog, and sherd food with him in a park, later i'd have a job interview on skype as a potential regional representative of some Pharmaceutical company, and I have no intention to return to uni after the break, now is break:),
I  wanted to remind you a film Deperado... You know why?
 Because Antonio Banderas said in a film or actually asked one girl
: Did I thenk you? No! I will!:)
the same with our conversation- I thank you, and I am thankfull for our conversation:)!
Could you vene imagine, english is not my native language,
 so until 1999 i wouldnt have even ability to communicate with you on such level..,
so i needed to go to UK in order just to be prepare for such a conversation, to make it possible:)?
How clever God Or Almighty Logos might be that allowed or planned before such events:)- Yes, it 's a topic to think about..
in 1999 i was studying in different uni, the faculty wasModern Languages
so in a porocess of studies we ve been offered to come to UK for a 7 days, it wasnt logical for me to pay for this trip such amount of requested monay..., but when I returned to our appt after a lecture and just started to think about it (it wasnt even a meditation or ths) I reseived a frase in my mind:YOur being in UK is already reality!,/ and you wouldnt beleive me I am practical rationalistic men beleived in it, and started visa process, while my mind still was having doubts...
finaly I went to UK and stayed there 3.5 years instead of 7 days:). Strange?,
 and some of these years I ve spend there going to Orthodoxal church...., but at the end I came to a Priest Rew.fr.Raphael and tryed to explaine that sometime during the servise i feel like in a theatre where only decoration, nothing more, might be it was just my personal religious crisis ( I nearly cryed while spoken with him), but I left this Church, but feel connected with it any ways,
I hope you were interested reading my thoughts:)
plans for the day
as i said, or actually wrote i d have jod interview on skypw, later -jim, later french club,visit my mom, and sleep:)
i am writing so fast that having dislexia:), i ve read what i wrote before:)- or disgraphya
i hope you having internal smile while reading my lines:),as I have:)
Strange, huh:)?
...Like one mormon said in the end of the story:better pray before!-i find it deep thought
It could help to avoid some unpleasant events
my teacher of aykido in UK called me: you are bloody Ukrainian lunatic:)
memory eternal to him
it is another story,
he was drugg addicted...
and he was dating with 15-y..o. girl, who at that time was reading Soljenitsyn
And once she approached him and said I would leave you!-Why? -Because I cant stand that you are killing yourself, ..so he overcome his addiction, they had a dayghter Elly, they wasnt officially merried and when I asked him why, he replied, maybe we would do it for fun, when our daughter would be 18
sadly he died and not fulfilled this his promise
his daughter Elly now about 18 i beleive...
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