I promise

Don`t wanna you to get any heaviness or anxiety from me. Was always afraid to cause any negative emotions in ya. The worst thing is to wish good and do bad.
My heart`s pounding. Well, it`s good, in some sense... no, it`s not. It`s pretty bad to feel so... to be so sensitive.
There`s no way to run crazy, being locked in a chest. No one to confess, and nobody will understand.
"I miss Him so much! Look, you too! Let`s tell him how much we miss him! Come on, now!" - the heart beats.
"You mad! Shh!"
Promise I`ll never bother you with that anymore.
"You know, it all could`ve been different... You Do know all the truth about him, all his goals, his truly wishes! He doesn`t even guess that we understand him so, let`s tell him about it!" - running.
"SHhhhh! What a rave you say!"
Promise I will never bother you with that.
"But we can change anything! We can start a new life and enjoy it! Do something special, feel something special together, you just have to..."
"Be quiet".
Promise I will never bother you with that.
"He`s always so busy. He will miss all the life! He IS missing nowadays!"
"Huh, well, it`s not our business, really".
Promise... uh-h. Look, there`s even nothing to say here. It`s totally your business.
"You`ll never be a couple with him... I wanna cry, I do cry... Wanna his shoulder to cry on..."
"Oh, yeah, what a beautiful picture".
Promise I will never bother you with that.
"Perhaps it was wrong from the very beginning? I mean, it would be better if you just hadn`t met him at all? Oh, no. No way... I want him to reassure you! Reassure us... OK, me..."
"...I wanna too. But let`s just be quiet".
Pause.
Sigh.
I promise. Yeah. Promise I will never bother you with that.
I stop looking around... Trying not to cry. Don`t wanna confess that I`m ill badly. That it lasts so long and takes so much time to cure.
It will leave me sometime, sure. It will end at one moment... All comes to harmony and peace. I will stop bothering you someday.
Well, it all would be great, if only I wasn`t so scared about it.
And for now...
For now I`m just trying to take back some parts of my heart, because it`s all left with you.