Secret Marriage

The secret marriage vow is never spoken
The secret marriage never can be broken

Wasn't that the same she always wanted? .. A few years ago, when she first heard this song, the words sank deeply into her soul, they resembled something like a scene from a forgotten movie or a book read a long time ago... or rather, an half-forgotten dream or an event from "the previous life".

We rarely manage to trace subtle connections, our associative memory is capricious and whimsical, but almost everyone at least once in a life-time has encountered a similar phenomenon.

These words touched something so deep in Natalie's soul that every time she heard them, her eyes were moistened with involuntary tears ...

No earthly church has ever blessed our union
No state has ever granted us permission
No family bond has ever made us two
No company has ever earned commission

No debt was paid no dowry to be gained
No treaty over border land or power
No semblance of the world outside remained
To stain the beauty of this nuptial hour

The secret marriage vow is never spoken
The secret marriage never can be broken

Life definitely deliberately created such circumstances that they had no choice, there was no other way but to conclude a secret alliance...

Amir's head rested on the pillow, Natalie lay on his chest... they talked about themselves, their plans and prospects for the future... Amir spoke mostly, and Natalie just lay there and sharply, like a flight in open space, felt weightlessness and in no words indescribable joy: now, it has come true! Finally they are together!

His heart was beating powerfully under her cheek, and she was ready to listen to this sound forever and ever!..

You are with me, my love! Finally it happened!..

She did not think about anything, did not foresee, did not make any plans. She just lived for these seconds, minutes and hours of their first magical night. Nothing makes love as sweet as a period of prior waiting. And now the time has come...

But there was something that Natalie wanted to tell him right now...

- Do you remember as I told you I wanted to say you something before we start our close relation... and you were so scared...

- Yes, what is it?

- I just wanted to say... before we start... I would like us to go somewhere ... where we will be all alone, just you and me... in presence of God and there we'll promise each other to be husband and wife like in front of God's face!..

The words that sounded in the dark were sincere and said not without difficulty... it's not easy to let someone deeply into the soul, even someone very close... but Amir laughed merrily, like childish stupidity. This laughter scratched Natalie's tender heart... He did not understand her!... did not understand how important it was for her... he always wanted her trust - and now, she trusted him completely!..

People arrange magnificent weddings, invite guests, call witnesses... but the True Witness is always only One... and the true union lies in the mysterious depth of the temple of the Soul by the free will of the heart... You can force a person to marry, but you cannot deceive or force the heart - a place, where God who is Love dwells...

However, Natalie did not become upset and didn't spoil the beauty of their first night of love. They will not rush... They will still have time to discuss everything... she knew that in the end, everything depends not on discussions, but on the will of God.

Yes, Natalie was of this kind: an exalted and pure soul who always and in everything relied on the will of the Creator... She had a great life experience behind her, life tested this woman for strength in a sophisticated way, many times, she had to endure the pain of separation, and the bitterness of betrayal, fear for her life and the life of her child, she had to go through years of uncertainty, to hide, to live without documents, to go through seven circles of bureaucratic hell, but in the depths of her soul Natalie always remained a child - pure, innocent and open, expecting the same purity and honesty from the one whom her heart chose and loved.

She would, of course, want her beloved to understand and accept the desire of her heart: if they are destined to be together... and if they cannot get married right now, then at least everything should be clear and beautiful in relation to God and each other...

And only much later she realized: it was that very night and that very minute. One way or another, the words were spoken out, and the Witness heard them. It was His invisible presence that gave that night depth and a shade of unearthly beauty came from the glint of His wings.

He was with them, and the secret union was made.

No flowers on the alter
No white veil in your hair
No maiden dress to alter
No bible oath to swear

The secret marriage vow is never spoken
The secret marriage never can be broken