Tomorrow you dead

"You are told. You are thought. You are still being remembered. Tomorrow you dead.
And today I remember your absence. This date was always near. It always seemed to me I know the answer. Now it seems you draw the picture of my life in the sky. Hardly did I know it...I would grab you all the time without any words.
Im scared uncontrolably."


Seconds are under control. They are faced and put into the watch. Not rabbit's one but universe's. We hold the moments and try to save them in our weak shaked hands.
And chain of grains is going and moments are changing. And decision to trash all being's reasons comes to us, looks into the eyes and we are scared uncontrolably.

Days before you called. You talked to me for an hour. I wasn't angry with you. I was angry with myself. Couldn't I think about the date 26/11/16? - Couldn't. I wanted you to stay as a grain in my shaked hands. But they shaked too much, you were dropped and I lost you. My one of the most beautifull moment. Now my hands shake more and Im scared more. I understand that all my grains can be dropped. All those I love. All those I try to save. You know what I am doing- Im crying. The weakest thing in whole world. I'm just dropping those salt drops.