I understand

*** Call to Amir, no answer. ***

let's talk, Amir, plz!

wait

ok long? and who are you talking with?

wait

just tell me: who? plz

wait

ok, I'll wait... but want to tell just one thing: it's very hard after we were together and you show me HOW nice you can be... to get again your rudeness and disrespect... just for nothing! it's very hard, Amir

yes, now i am free, tell me what do you wana say?

can we talk? not type?

we can write, it's better

who you were talking with? why should I wait?

well forget it

what else should I forget? I told you how it feels to me

did you ever try to understand how it feels to me?

help me, I didn't

how many things you hide from me more?

hide? why are you lying? didn’t you know about him??? or what do you mean?

i don't know, ok? i am telling you everything in simple words that are understandable for you

it’s better if you say: I don't want to hear the name again cause seems like this is 'a red rag' for you but don't blame me I hide

well do you like to hear Nicole's name?

no, Amir, I don't, but even after you made me suffer so much, I never disrespect you for her and trying not to be rude and listen to you when you wanna tell and ask me before: don't you mind if I tell you

well i am like that, if you don't like you can leave me anytime

I don't want to leave you cause I love you

funny

but I also believe: there is no love and good relations without respect and you disrespect me in this way: wait... funny... I don't know... I should think and so on

ok

can you be with me what you REALLY are?

if i disrespect you then i am not suitable for you

I love you, but, Amir, PLZ, don't make me suffer that much
ok, so do you want us to part? then SAY it and don't blame me for YOUR decision

well i can't bear

what?
what, darling?

your so many loves

so many?.. I lived alone many years and never loved again. Doesn't it say you something???

then what was with that Adnan?

yea, but listen... can we talk?

no, we can't

so can I explain something or better just never touch the topic and the name again?

ok

I really didn't expect you would react this way after you have seen me and after knowing HOW MUCH I love you!!! I didn't expect, Amir... I am VERY sorry
so?

you said you wana explain something, i am listening to you

but if it is SO hard for you?
well, first of all about a baby... it was so wrong: father doesn't mean just someone who you have sex with!.. good father means someone who cares and loves own child so it wasn't about these 'just 5 min'

ok

I wanted to be careful THIS time and find a good man

alright but you already said that i disrespect you

as about him... well, he was a good friend but not that I wanted... he wasn't able to be so free in mind as I expected him to be and so brave and strong. It wasn't even about you that we stopped; we had problems before...

and i am rude

so I just wanted to underline yesterday how good you are for me and how much I love you and happy to be with you... and I got such reaction that I really will NEVER talk about him again

well, Nadia, i don't want this distance relation
if you want to be with me then live with me

how?

if we don't have any solution then let's just forget about this relation thing, i don't want to just talk here and keep saying i love you cause i can't feel love when you are not with me

so you were lying these last days?

i was not lying but yesterday i didn’t like whatever you said about your relations

and what is your solution?

come and stay with me, marry me

there, in Dubai? do you really wana stay there?

i want to stay with you
so where else can we stay? tell me?

why can't you TALK to me, I want to hear your voice

my friends are in room

ok, I see... aren't you angry with me now? honestly?

well i didn’t like the love stories you told me...

well, Amir! you KNEW that

what? what's that?

listen, Amir, I don't wanna you make me feel guilty: all these stories were BEFORE you and you left me AFTER knowing me and made me suffer SO hard even knowing how much I was hurt already

ok

and I forgave

ok thanks

and I love you even now

thanks for it as well

but i can't BEG you about your love! if you can't accept what I am I can't do anything about that: if just my love for you is not enough then be honest, tell me that and don't make me suffer more

i don’t want skype love

do you wana me? because you mix 2 things here - skype and my previous life without you

when can we be together?

when you want it? and HOW? you have nowhere to live with me...

place is not an issue

well, Amir, I can do for you whatever you want but it should be real and normal decision, not made in the moment you feel bad or something

i really feel bad and i was about to finish everything

and now?... I want you to be happy

just find some solution to be with me
if not then let's finish it

ok, it will be as you wish

don’t put everything on me

why? I am not telling about finishing and I don't force you as you are doing now

so you want to spend whole life on skype? talking one or two hours?

no, Amir, I want to be with you

so?

but your moods and decisions are still too changeable for me... and normally I think man should decide

i don't know what to say

and especially you know my love can bear everything but it is difficult for me to decide instead of you... you are the one for me and I have no choice - just you but as for you - it's another story... so I can't decide instead of you

ok

I just want your honest answer...
Amir, try to understand what I am asking
if you feel like: 'she is just something for me... maybe I can meet someone better' then be honest and tell me: Nadia, sorry, bye

if that would be the case why would i ask to live with me?

then if you feel like me, there is no any ‘OR’, we just have to find solution to be together

yea ok...  you didn't get answer from anywhere from last one week

I got but it was sad

what?

well, it was a kind of explanation why and according to what paragraph the court stopped the matter, it was from chancellor

so no hope

I will go to lawyer next Thursday to ask how to act and what to do

and spend more and more money for nothing

no, the answer says: the matter was stopped on your request that was true cause I stopped it... cause it wasn't important for me then

yea, because you were losing money

because I lost YOU for that moment and I didn't want to continue, I felt very tired from everything... as yesterday when you started to behave the same way again and I even couldn’t sleep properly...
we called ambulance for my mom yesterday and today I spent with her about 5 hours in the hospital

what happened to her?

so it was hard day for me
well, I don't wana discuss it, she worried a lot because of father... it's the same you are doing with me and don't even understand that one day I can simply die of all that

Nadia, please don't say that

it's true, it's the way you made me feel

Nadia!

I am not that strong physically, you saw me, right?

i will not let you die, you have to live long with me

I have only strong spirit and only when God keeps me, but alone I'm very weak

you are not alone

yea... then don't make me suffer, plz

ok then find some solution and stay with me, i don't wana waste my life without you

find? me? we should do it  together

come here in Dubai, live here with me

I'll come if you want and when you want

sure?

yea

ok

just I don't think it is right moment to come RIGHT now

why?

calm down a bit, plz... just because it is important decision and shouldn't be done when you are upset and shouldn’t be done in hurry, right?

ok right

:) take some rest now, let me talk to this lawyer

you too
but don't waste more money

in any case - I am yours, and our love is real

i know

I don't want anyone - just you
Amir, also about money
I should earn some a bit first, right? I have no money right now

ok, i can wait for you, no matter how long
lets talk a bit...
.........................................................
Nadia, i love you and i am missing you so much these days

I love you too, honey

your body fragrance... i can’t live alone now

I knew it would be difficult but what can I do about that right now?

yea, i understand...

MofL (VI)