JIE. Chapter 7. Free Will

JOURNEY INTO ETERNITY

Chapter 7

FREE WILL

So this is it. Everything has always been. You have always been Everything. And the reason you are Everything is this eternal move of Life according to the Great Plan. If you are already with me on this idea, follow me to the next one.   
Because a derivative question that I used to face with many other people is this: “If it was a Great Plan and we are part of it. Whose plan was it? God’s? Or ours? Whose will we carry out? God’s? Or our own?”   
These questions has always tortured my inquisitive and teasing mind since I started to read all possible holy books. On almost every page you can meet this concept of God’s Great Will in one form or another. But close to this concept there inseparably goes another one – Free Will. And this question has always been the most discussed and studied in all respectful religious communities. Together with other average earth-dwellers, arguing about priority and paradox of existence of God's Will and our free will together.   
I guess another provocative question that you may often hear from people is “If God is all Good and Purity and Light, and all other best sides of this world, and if His Will is overall and universal, how Could He let bad, dark, evil, tragic, cruel things happen on the Earth?”   
At certain point of my life during many years I myself was in constant bewilderment: “If God is almighty and He knows since the beginning everyone’s path in their lives, how could He ever create people who would choose to go the wrong or bad path at all?” Like “Why to create a sinner? Since   
God already knows that he will be a sinner and will only go against God’s Will. Against Good and Light/and whatever. Why to create this soul? Just to punish and send them to Hell? To doom him/her into sufferance since the beginning!? Why? To give them a chance to improve, to choose the right path in the end? But the point is that God already knows “their end” – their ultimate choice – and STILL creates them. – WHY – WHY?”   
My human mind would never accept such injustice from the most Pure Entity, like God. “Then it’s not God. God doesn’t act like this! God wouldn’t. God is good! And this is wrong! No!” — my indignant and righteous soul was screaming. But on the other hand, by being that close-minded (or rather saying my mind was restricted from getting the True Answers from my Soul, because my mind simply was asking the wrong questions). I could not possibly see the True Answers to the main Questions. I still don’t see all of them. And I doubt that I will during human life. But little by little… by setting free my soul’s consciousness from mind’s restriction, from human emotions and ignorance…and little by little… by letting the Inner Knowledge speak to my heart,… …I was unveiling piece by piece, getting rid of that scary shield that was hiding the Sacred Knowledge. Shield that is protecting the Knowledge from such ignorant people, like I was. In order not to violate it and not to harm myself maybe.   
Sometimes I am so grateful that the truth was not opening to me on my immature stages of learning. Sometimes for a second I just imagine what calamities there could be if I used the knowledge being unready to apprehend it.   
Any knowledge – is indeed a true power. But any knowledge without deep understanding of its origin and wisdom and skill to apply it can turn into unexpected and even destructive consequences.   
True Knowledge is always learnt along the long way towards the inner harmony. You can never learn it from demanding, rejection, anger, indignation and stress you put yourself into and enmity against the world. The power of Knowledge can become constructive and self-growing only when you clear your consciousness and realize that everything works within the Harmony. And every event and every smallest revelation comes in its proper time, at its proper stage of self-realization.   
So, for example, if an unready person receives the knowledge about the Truth, it will be distorted anyway. No matter what intentions and purpose a certain person had in order to learn the truth.   
I want you to look back at some certain events from the ancient past, which you are so familiar with. Everybody knows the key plot of the Biblical story about Adam and Eve. Right now I suggest you to give some freedom to your imagination and dive with me into reflection…   
God gives Adam and Eve everything they need to live a happy life. But He forbids them to eat from the Tree of Knowledge. Some say that it presupposes the knowledge of good and evil. And some say that it is the Knowledge of Everything. Or any kind of divine knowledge at any level of its complexity. But which was definitely unachievable for the state of mind of Adam and Eve at that time.   
“Why would God forbid Adam and Eve eat from the Tree of Knowledge? Is He that greedy? Why would he prevent us from knowing His nature and Universal Truth at one simple bite??? Greedy-greedy God”. Kind of these ideas I often hear too. But God is not greedy, isn’t He? Otherwise it is not God. Whoever, but not God.   
But let’s think. It is also said that God told Adam that if he eats the fruit from the Tree (Attention! Even ONE fruit! Just think about it. It could be a Knowledge about one of numerous Universes of the Multiverse, for example.)   
So, God says that “if you eat the fruit form the Tree of Knowledge you will die”.
There are also a lot of interpretations of the event of “Fall of man” from the Heaven (or whatever world at that stage of their existence, where God put them at first). So as well as any Knowledge is dangerous for people if they can’t use it in a right way or can’t even enclose it in their minds, – the same way the Knowledge from the “Divine” Tree ( that only God can enclose and stay unhurt) was dangerous for Adam’s and Eve’s lives at their stage of evolution. ( I don’t say they were stupid or something. They were created the way that their mind wasn’t suppose to operate such a profound information or such high frequency like information from the Tree of Knowledge ). So they “fell” from the “Heaven”. Or they “died”. In other words: they changed their plane of existence into another: Earth.   
Who knows. Maybe Adam and Eve ate the apple that contained the model and Knowledge of the world on the planet Earth and that’s why they happened to move here ( yes, yes, let your imagination spread its wings and fly in a free flight ;) ). So they “died” as “Heaven dwellers” and were reborn as Earth dwellers. Of course with all further changes of life principles: as physical, as physiological, as biological, as mental. In other words: they were given the surrounding with certain conditions, including a human brain which works also according certain conditions. So they’ve got a new “tool” to apprehend the new reality, given to them. From this point of view I can understand the interpretation “you will die if you eat the fruit of Knowledge”. It means their happy ignorant life on that plane of existence will come to end. And a new life within new plane will start.   
So let’s think now a bit. And answer the question. WHY don’t we have now the Knowledge of Creation and of all the  answers to the Big Questions of the Everything? Why don’t we have all the answers to eternal questions of human mind? Like the ones that were raised here. Like to apprehend with our mind the Essence of God, the Eternity, the Free Will, the Power of Attraction in the Universe. Yes. For now we can only guess, we can think over it, maximum what we can do is to accept it and try to prepare ourselves to its understanding, but we still won’t be able to apprehend it with our human brain, given by God for now, in this exact life, at this exact stage of evolution of our Essence. In this exact plane of existence with its laws and conditions. Otherwise we would go insane. Because our tool, called “brain” , is not supposed to operate such information. So, to be able to actually enclose the Higher Knowledge we would need technically “to die”. To change one plane of existence with its tools of apprehension into some other new tools in other plane of existence where the further Knowledge will be accessible to us.   
Did I get the answers to these eternal questions of mine – the questions that caused a creation of this book? – No. I didn’t. Did I manage to accept them, the existence of them even despite of my inability to apprehend them for now? Did I learn to trust the Universe instead of fighting against it? Did I feel the Harmony, which embraces all and wisely protects us from ourselves on the one hand and sensibly leads us towards our True Selves on the other? Yes. I did.   
It didn’t bring me the knowledge of “what? when? and how?”. But it somehow presented me with a quiet understanding of “what for?”. And a secure realization, that there is a much greater picture of the world. Not only dividing people, souls, events into good and bad. Into right and wrong. Into those that were supposed to happen and those that weren’t supposed to happen. Understanding, that every event, every stage of our growing, evolution and living was a Great Plan of Almighty God. Otherwise He wouldn’t make it happen at all! All “GOOD” and all “BAD” are the same notions of Buddhism of Yin and Yang, dark and light, day and night, — any duality, that is present in our Life at all stages of our Existence. Without dark there would not be light. It’s one of the main principles of growing, I think. And the most paradoxical thing is that through dark we rush towards the light. Through learning, through purifying our Souls, our morals, our Consciousness; age after age, life after life, incarnation after incarnation: here on Earth, or there on “Heaven”, or there on the other planets, in other spaces and universes.   
And this understanding (or at least slight hint to understanding) has happened to me when I “saw” (or felt) that Crystal of Existence inside of me. Millions of billions crystals of the crystals of the crystals aaaaaaaaaaaaaaand of the One Great Crystal of our Supreme Soul. To make the Crystal shine brightly we purify It: one facet after another. Growing, realigning, and forming new and new crystals – millions of molecules that form one single Organism. Like cells in our body: some of them are harmful for our health, some of them die or infect the healthy ones, but anyway any ill cells stimulate the healthy ones to fight, to gather all their potential reserves to heal the whole organism. So the same as good or bad cells exist, the same as light or dark facets of the crystal exist, the same as good and bad emotions, feelings, moral choices of our personalities exist and fight every day inside of us, – the same good and bad people exist. Like dark and light, like ill and healthy. Like parts of ALL of us: including every person. People’s wisdom always knew it. Though parable and teachings. “   
There are two wolves that live inside of you. One of them is a good wolf which represents things like kindness, bravery and love. The other – is a bad wolf, which represents things like greed, hatred and fear. And in this eternal battle there is the one that wins: the one you feed.” MAYBE… who knows… God created other realities where things work differently and where we don’t need this inner fight to grow and evolve. Who knows. But for now we live here and now. In this plane of existence, on this very planet, in this very shape of human body, with human brain and mind. And we use the common principles of this Universe to continue our eternal journey.   
Who knows. Maybe Adam and Eve made one mistake once. They weren’t actually ready to apprehend all the Knowledge and ate the fruit which was still early for them to eat. Who knows… We can only guess now.   
But on the other hand, by coming back to the very first question we can add another one: Why then God settled the Tree of Knowledge into Heaven on the first place?...   
Tricky, ha? :)   
I will let you answer this question by yourself.   
Funny picture of alternative reality of this story:   
   
But I don’t understand why such questions like “How could God let happen all the evil and all the sins in the world?” are that paradoxical for people, while we see that God actually once let happen the very first sin in human history like Adam’s and Eve’s “fall”. Right? Why doesn’t anyone ask THIS question first?   
Maybe the right choice that Adam and Eve had to take on the first place was to kill the damn snake? :) But what kind of world would we have now? What kind of life and lessons would we learn?... What if this greatest firstborn sin, that God let happen, was done for the Greater Purpose of all of our evolution and crystallization? Have you ever thought about it?   
I have. I mean that finally from this perspective I could at least approach to understanding of such complex notion like Free Will, God’s Will, Our Common Path: both unique and united. And united by the greatest and the most overwhelming and loving power like God. Like Supreme Ultimate Energy, that originates from and illuminates with Harmony of the whole Universe, Multiverse and Everything. To understand a concept of free will in this whole huge world you must apprehend such notion like Harmony. Well, for now it’s the closest word that I can describe the way I see it.   
So for now, I am wise enough to be grateful for this very world we have now: light and dark, Yin and Yang, day and night, the sun and the thunderstorms, that let us see the wonder of a rainbow afterwards, the beauty and the depth of this world, so diverse and so vast and generous for its miracles! I am grateful for this very Life. With our very Souls. And it means… that nothing was done in vain. One way or another, every event in global scale has its sense. A Great Sense of a Great Plan of the Greatest Energy, that Loves us all. The Energy that keeps Everything in Harmony. If you are against the Harmony, you are beyond it. Like ill cells, like dark souls, like bad, evil entities: they are fought and healed with healthy ones, light ones, good ones. Harmony is not evil, it doesn’t make any plots against you. As well as it doesn’t make choices instead of you. It is neither your friend nor your enemy. It is only Harmony, and It only rejects anything alien or harmful, like a Great Eternal Organism. Religious people call it God and His Word, scientists – call It physical laws, esoteric practitioners – call It Karma. As you wish. The main thing that I realized is that the initial desire of a Soul – is this aspiration for Harmony. Harmony in Everything: in yourself, with people, with God, with the whole huge Universes of eternal number of Multiverses.   
And this is where lies your Free Will – within the Harmony of God’s Will. Within the Harmony with Everything and within Everything – within US.   
Free Will is a diverse manifestation of the “Us” in different personalities from life to life. By being One Single Whole we grow, we make our own choices, live our own lives, we manifest, we learn our lessons: good or bad, big or small. Look at your neighbour, look at your school teacher, look at a stranger passerby or even at a robber. Look at great inventors of all times, look at the key figures through all the history. Look at any person on the planet Earth. All of them were writing the history of YOUR Life. Your common life, and unique at the same time. All of us are small parts of a great puzzle, called "the Us"="the You" ="the Me". All of our lives are little steps in our Common Evolution, Common Growth, Common Enlightenment. And the more choices we make – the further we go, the more lives we live – the closer we get to the Recollection of and the Return to Our True Self, which is One Single Eternal Essence, living in Harmony and Love for All.   

14-21.12.2017