Mind Transformation 1

1.
I still feel some weakness. My wishes seem to be unable for organizing my behavior. I lost so much power by playing in video games. I need time to recover. I know I will be stronger soon. I know what is going to happen when I'm making the journal.
Books stop inspiring me. All of I read during last winter didn't give me power. Since I gave up writing in English and stopped paying attention to my development in these fields, I've had a long period of degradation. There were many ups but if to consider all period from the highest perspective it was a slow degradation. All knowledge I've got should be used. It's the key to progress. If I study English but not writing and not observing my own growth, it won't work. The same is in the case of writing in Russian. Reading books has a sense if and only if I analyze all of I read. If it doesn't happen then nothing works and I lose motivation, desire, and aim etc. In other words I must write to be in a good shape. And I will write. I want to write; I had a lot of rest. To watch stupid movies and spend time for silly things - I must end with it.
To write! To read! To work with yourself! You can!

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