Mind Transformation 12

12.
S: 7.4
a: 1:30
w: 11:00
11504
It’s becoming more difficult to write every day. I spend so much time for listening English, but it doesn’t give me strong confidence when I need to write. I want to say that I should improve my vocabulary. I know a lot of words but I use very few of them for writing. I need to do something with that. I could write more if I’m able to express my thoughts clearly. My education strategy is not good. I’ve spent so much time studying English, and I still do not achieve at an advanced level. Yes, I can write poems; yes, I can understand the content of simple videos; yes, I can write about my learning and something else. However, I can’t feel confident. I can’t think in English as well as I want. I can’t be certain when I write my thoughts. And also I can’t even write one fucking page every day. The latter is most important because if I’m able to write one page every day I could be sure that in a small period of time I will be able to do all the rest. Of course, I can fill the page with some garbage or to write about my actions like that: Today I watched A.G. Hoge’s videos when I was cooking a soup in a kitchen. Also I watched a lesson on Engvid by Alex, where he told about the difference between “who” and “whom”. Then I watched some episodes of Crash Course “World Hystory” and so on…
I want to write perfectly! When will I be able to?

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