Revelation

Revelation comes so unexpectedly.

It was a dark Thai evening. It was not late, but in other southern countries the sun was like a young hot flirting girl. It appeared in full force in the morning and kissed you to redness. Like a hungry man you put each part of your body to her burning touches asking for more. At 6 in the evenong it romantically disappeared behind the water line and hills promising you to come back tomorrow. You watch it go with adore-blurred mind and only after it fully disappears you understand that your body hurts and that it left you with nothing more but pain.

That was such a calm place. She and her friend were the only guests in this god-forsaken place. At first this scared her but as their vacation went, day after day, she loved this place more and more. Especially evenings. She loved them most.

People come to southern countries for heat, sun, 5-day-eternal loves, but she loved nights. There's always something mystical about them.

Her eyes were closed and she was listening to waves split against the shore. Night tropical birds were sending messages to each other and her rum-infected brain tried to decipher their secrets. But she gave up while her mind kept singing melodies. She decided just to relax.

She opened her eyes and the dark-blue leather of the sky above her was dotted with stars. They formed such incredible figures. She tried to remember some constellations she learned but that was in vain. All she could see were circles, triangles and she raised her finger to connect these dots like in a children book.

Right at this moment it hit her that this is what it is. Life is here. In this Moment. Not in searching for ideal place and time. Not in searching for best party, best guy, best friend, best body and best food. But here. In her mind. She closed her eyes again and fixed this feeling as a picture. She put it on the "fame-wall" of her consciousness.

"Deat H, come and watch at it when you feel distressed, depressed and scared. Live as you want, do what you want. Get hurt, cry, laugh. You have the place where to go. Maybe not physically. But mentally. Come to this place. Here you are complete." Your Brain