Mind Transformation 152

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It seems that writing my Russian journal distracts me so much. I can’t concentrate on something else because all my attention is spending for this task. However, I feel also that this task is very important. If I continued doing it for some months I would have a huge improvement in my writing abilities. So, there is a small contradiction, and I have to solve it somehow. I’ve already mentioned that I was going to give up this task and recover my self-discipline, but I haven’t done it. Instead, I continued writing every day and by now reached to the point where all “crazy” things started to happen. I think it’s better to finish this part and then make a rest. For my English practice this task is an obstacle. I could invest all my mental energy in English writing but instead of that I made myself obliged to spend more than two hours for typing and thinking in Russian. Moreover, I feel how the task determines my thoughts and affects my mind throughout all these days. Of course, I can switch from one language to another and make my job here and there, but it seems to me that doing so I’m becoming quite superficial, and perhaps there is no point to fluctuate between both directions if I can completely deepen in one of them.

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