Dark secret

SHE: thanks for opening your wall but you know how it feels if I find something interesting - and CAN’T COMMENT???

HE: i thought it’s too painful for u, so i eradicated the pain.

SHE: oh, you are SO naughty! no pain here anymore, believe me, I even checked it just from time to time, but it was interesting to know what you were thinking at. As you wish, I don't like something in half, you know. Or do it in normal way!

HE: me neither... never like something half heartedly...

SHE: hm... I doubt. Just don't like to go in depth for the moment.

I had 4 msges today from different persons... I answered your last... and got back first... interesting, yea?

I never do anything in half... this "missing" part was yours.

HE: i know u may have genuine reasons to disbelieve.

oh don’t worry about first and last, because this is not a thing i am pursuing wholeheartedly...... i was just 'free' so it was interesting on the plate...

things not going well with 'your' amir?


SHE: were you FREE? oh, sorry! I don't like when ppl try to re-write a "story". You weren't free, and well, you told me it from the start, just I didn't put much attention 'cause it was nothing to me then and you preferred "to forget" about it as well for a while.
 
 
HE: yes, but that doesn’t mean i have lied or does it?

i told u i was feeling extraordinarily erotic and beyond my control. That was the reason i told u that u didn’t fall into any trappings thinking it’s LOVE.

So Amir didn’t meet u, despite u went to Dubai with your ticket? he is making 'fun' with your feelings or something?

by the way with FREE i meant I had nothing else to do in work at office... a little sin doesn’t cost? or does it?

it surely does... but... we're humans...

SHE: well, stop for a while! Give me a chance to answer!

HE: hahaha go ahead....

SHE: well, I didn't went to Dubai... today is 24th of February and we booked ticket on 27th... so I would fly in 3 days.... but now all it has being stopped.

HE: ohh today is 24th wow... i thought it already passed  hehehe
why? he doesn't love u anymore or vise versa?

SHE: about you and me... well, I tell you something about me, seems like I didn't tell it before. I am very weak for such feelings as you described about yourself. So if somebody has such passion for me I just can't stand... but I answer in MY way... by falling in love.

You did one very good thing for me - helped to get free from my past, you divided me from it completely and whole this year I know you, I live here and now. So THANKS!

other thing I told you for many times already: you always will stay special for me, like the only one, no matter if I am in some relations with other(s) 'cause you are the only man in my life who feels equal to me. No one can understand me as much as you. And for me also not so difficult to understand you. Men use to say: "I am not clever enough for you... not enough intelligent... I can't understand you"... You are telling me I'm silly. Funny! I like it... for a change!
 
why are you asking about him now..? I love him, I don't know how much it's real, for find it I need to meet him, but I feel a lot.

well, you were free in your office, no, not a big sin, I think...
it is still more about destiny. I am happy I met you and "got" you!..
I still don't understand: why can't we be friends on FB? I like to see your posts and put comments whenever I want to. What a problem here at last?


HE: thank u for being so praiseful about me, feel so flattered hehehe... always nice to listen to good things about one's self... human nature...

it would have been nice if there were to be an opportunity to have an exchange with u in real life... may be... maybe not...

About Amir... just asked if you had a one line explanation like... 'we are not in love anymore' or 'i don’t think he is the same anymore' etc...
didn’t really want to go in deep details about the affair…
OR you may also say... 'we are in Love'... as u said... if that is so... then good... wish u guys good luck towards heavenly goodness... and don’t worry u r gonna get other pleasures of husband and meeting with ur children as well in heaven... everything improved... just be a good believer... 

about being on FB... i just think it’s better this way… i have too much considerations to worry about my main page...

u can be my dark secret here… my mistress... lol... secret compound of lust... haha... just kidding

well i don’t think of this like this... neither do we both engage in such behavior in this message box.... but there is always a chance of 'mutating' of a relationship between a man and a woman... lolll

though i know it won’t happen...  don’t worry... or it may happen hehe... but highly unlikely

KAMA, from VII part