Soul searching

On Tue, Jul 5, 201* at 7:07 PM, kidu wrote:

"U should have still replied as a courtesy, that u have come to this mindset and decided not to pursue me any longer. It’s part of good conduct and feels good to the other person." :)
came across it and couldn't stop myself... today is your day... enjoy!




12.07.201*

well, i didn’t think that much about it lol…
May Allah help you.

I was on a 40-days trip of soul searching… it’s a movement here to honor the Prophets of God (May peace be upon them all) where you leave your house and environment trying to look for meaning inside.
40 is an important number.

couldn’t quit smoking though, so couldn’t quite make it a successful soul-searching trip (since i couldn’t subdue my desires thus couldn’t fully complete the creed of Faith i.e. 'There is No God But One true God').

>>DON’T READ THIS PARAGRAPH IF U DON’T FEEL LIKE READING THE BRAZEN/UNCENSORED TRUTH OF LIFE>> And this (unsuccessfulness of the trip) is probably the reason why i thought of replying to you. To be honest, you are like a bad habit that would not go without a heavy dose of chastisement and a true sense of purpose... :) Do you realize it? yes, you may smile rather than being angry or sad about it. Try it. :)

>>CONTINUE READING BENEATH THIS IF YOU TOOK THE ADVICE AT THE START OF ABOVE PARAGRAPH, THOUGH I HIGHLY DOUBT THAT YOU TOOK IT ;) <<
"Nevertheless by the nature of it, it (the 40 days trip) was enriching, though it’s highly subtle to the observer specially." - here it is; the price of your pursuit that you do of me.

even though i am convinced, God knows if i am right or wrong about this assessment of mine about you, that your pursuit of mine is fruitless for your soul in the truest of sense in terms of eternal bliss. May be it’s useful for you for your 'interest' in writing a Novel, even though i don’t know why it should be, no matter how much i would like it to actually be of 'interest' to somebody. But what use is it if it all comes from someone who is still hollow inside and incomplete? It would serve no Good to society like an useless gossip magazine, it would probably waste someone's precious time because a person without a true sense of purpose cannot inspire anyone else either, no matter how charming the words, and if it’s like a scientific description of facts, well, every human has his own; lots of them. No need to dwell in others’ thoughts if u haven’t yet crossed your own tides.

i wonder if u care about the eternal bliss.

i wonder if i care about mine when i let my personal desires ride over my soul thus making it a demi-god opposing the wishes of the One true God. Thus falling from the place of 'Best of Creation' down to the cattle or beneath. It’s not theology; it’s the philosophy of life in real-terms.

My wedding is on 22nd.


KAMA, the end of the novel