Mind Transformation 221

221.
Deprivation. No learning. No food. No water. No movement.
I was lying on bed for about 30 hours.
At the end of the day, I began to feel noise in my head. It stopped only after I ate and took a walk in the next morning. However, it got back in the evening when I try to fall asleep. If I changed the position of my body, it stopped for a short interval.
In the first time, I observed some kind of superstitious behavior. I thought that I have been studying a lot and it caused this condition. My Russian mind was in panic; he was scared like a little kid. Sometimes, it’s gone to the point when I tried to convince myself that I should quit learning at all. But then I realized that learning is my deepest nature, and there is nothing to do without it. Although sometimes there are some challenges, it’s always possible to find a way to get through. 

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