Mind Transformation 311

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Jung, Harvard’s Lectures: Justice 2(Michael Sandel).
S - 2.
i - 3, s - 1, M, w - 8km
Yesterday, I relaxed and did no exercises. I simply removed everything of that sort out of my routine, and it opened up new opportunities giving me a new way of looking at things. In past I usually tried to develop my morning—and any other—routine by pushing myself to do things as much as possible. At some degree it worked; and such advancements like 15 days of 6 "i" with 2 "s" performing uninterruptedly were really amazing. I got so much positive emotions from that experience, but it occurred only a few times during four years. I certainly remember that I wanted to save that routine and work on it more, but it turned out otherwise. I always was able to find many excuses to decrease the amount of "i" and "s". I often convinced myself that one or two "i" were quite sufficient to maintain good shape. Now, I see that I actually was exhausted by restless practice and my ideal of the highest performance played not the least role in my failure. By the latter I mean the impossibility to achieve something like a 100 day sequence of  6 "i" consistently performed, or the condition of 8.0. Of course, I may use lots of words and describe it by saying that I was full of energy and everything felt excellent; or that it’s like being in a kind of transcendent mood almost all the time—but words seems useless to draw a clear picture of what the condition actually feels like.
So now I’m going to pay attention to my relaxation as well as to concentration. It should help me with building my routine strategically and avoiding overwork. Perhaps the real wushu begins quite soon.

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