Mind Transformation 318

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IV
Jung “The Development of Personality”, Lectures: Sandel “Justice 6”, WBW.
pushups 90, squats 40, S, s - 2, i - 1
The more I think before writing, the harder it gets to start. Perhaps the best way is to start from any stupid sentence and then use thinking to move on. I mean that after writing something down, even if it’s something meaningless, my brain automatically shifts to a different mode and produces something that makes sense to develop the first sentence. Again, there is no point to focus on any sentence or simplify the writing process; I must write every day and the point is to do something about that. If my brain feels that writing is tough or boring or whatever—it’ll use any chance to avoid doing that. Especially if it knows that it’s not necessary. However, it’s quite obvious that writing brings so much meaning to my life, though it’s only possible to notice when I look at a big distance. In other words, logically it’s necessary to write down my thoughts every day to improve my life by any means, but for my brain it’s not the case because of the lack of instant gratifications. If I learn to write without paying attention whether or not it gives desirable output, if I’m able to set it on daily basis, if I can sustain relatively long sequences and write, let say, half a year without missing a day—there’ll be no shadow of a doubt that writing is the best thing one can do in life. But sometimes, after periodical breaks, when I’m not writing and my thinking slightly degrades, I need to convince myself from the very beginning that writing is important, writing is the key, writing is—
Yeah, it’s dull and so what? To make pushups is also dull. Running is dull. Many good things are bloody dull but I have to do them to get ahead.

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