Mind Transformation 320

320.
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Jung, Castaneda, Leo.
One of the most annoying features of daily writing is the worrying about the content of writing. When I think too much about what should be written or whether it is going to be good or bad, I usually come up with no desire to write anything at all. It rather must be considered as an exercise that doesn’t have any other meaning but a 30 minute meditating practice regardless of the result. I mean it’s really hard to convince yourself that the exercise doesn’t have any other meaning. Ideally, I shouldn’t look at what I write afterwards; maybe once a month or a few times per year is appropriate though. If I don’t read, therefore, I don’t care. Hence there is a question: What’s the purpose of writing if I don’t read it afterwards? Again, it’s like meditation; I just learn to reflect on a particular subject every day so that I’m not only play with my thoughts in my head but also give them a chance to manifest themselves through writing. It’s just impossible to sit 30 minutes doing nothing without finding something that may be written down. Even if one is a complete idiot something is gonna come to his stupid head. Write it down and see what’s gonna come next time. It’s like a lottery. Today you can win the jackpot, and then there will be nothing for the whole next year. That’s okay. I don’t lose anything by sitting and thinking 30 minutes every day; and I don’t waste my time either. Perhaps this is the most beneficial thing I can do—sit and think as much as I can. Although I don’t like sitting, do I? Well, I can use my bed and think laying on it as I’m doing right now. Probably it’s not a good handwriting though because of that, but who cares—

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