Mind Transformation 323

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Jung, Freud “The Psychopathology of Everyday Life”, WBW, Justice, Vsause.
meng,  i, M.
Before falling asleep, made up a short poem:

Poems were always my passion;
I’ve started write them in Russian,
And did that several years;
I’ve spent lots of blood and tears;
I’ve lost my youth and my health,
All of my friends and wealth,
Trying to do my best;
And everything of the rest
I’m also ready to leave
Hey, don’t you still believe
In me?

I wouldn’t say that it turned out quite brilliant, but unlike many other poems I wrote in English, this one was made spontaneously and without help of the internet. I mean I didn’t look for rhymes etc. Interestingly enough, it happened after several days of practicing ;, and I also had a lucid dream afterwards. A poem plus a lucid dream is a nice reward. Today, I analyzed this dream and figured out that my sexual instinct, which controls my behavior in almost all lucid dreams, appears to be a part of my subconsciousness, whereas the intent to maintain awareness, which I always lose by following bloody sexual impulses, is the manifestation of the persona. I’m not sure whether it’s actually the persona or the ego because I don’t see a big difference between these two. If I project these repeating lucid dreams onto my life it may show that my subconsciousness wants to have sex and family, though maybe it’s not my personal subconsciousness but the collective one. The persona, on the other hand, wants to keep awareness and be free.

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