Mind Transformation 346

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On the way home.
It seems that the feeling of sorrow has been swept away, but the sickness is still here. In six hours I’m leaving this place. So now it’s time to sum up all thoughts, feelings, etc which I’ve had those days. In general, I would say that everything was nice except the sickness at the end of the vacation and this “irrational” feeling of sorrow which was pressing me with a strong passion for a few days. Perhaps nights also were basically hard, though the degree of comfort was actually the last thing I cared about. I went to the sea every day several times, walked in the shore for many hours at evenings, and spent almost no money. I also wrote a note everyday so that my learning actually was not interrupted even in a totally festive environment.
What else? Well, I’ve already packed all my things and said farewell to the sea. Yesterday, the sea was so clean; it was cleaner than on any other day. So I’m not sure whether I want to go and see it once more before leaving. What if today it’s dirty? I certainly wish to remember it being clean and transparent. However, probably, I’ll go because there is nothing to do these six hours, and I have to walk as much as possible before I get in a car and remain sitting in it for 16 hours till I come to Tula. Yea, I’ll go and look at the sea after finishing this note; and if it’s dirty, well, it’s dirty only close to the shore, but my eyes can see at the horizon.
Many amazing thoughts have been coming to me while I was here, though I didn’t reflect upon them. Maybe I’ll develop them later by using my “hour of thinking.” One important thought was based on the assumption that the world develops itself in two directions, and during last 3,000 years it actually hasn’t changed so much in one, whereas in the other there were lots of transformations. Again, it’s all about “the world as will and language.” I tried to combine Schopenhauerian and Jungian ideas and found some peculiar similarities between them, but now it’s time to end up.

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