Mind Transformation 361

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Banya.
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It’s quite strange that after the whole year of an uninterrupted learning and developing my writing I still haven’t gone far off from the point where I was back then. Besides some small things, my current writing doesn’t differ from what I wrote a year ago. I can see it while editing my journal. Sometimes, though, I’m surprised by clarity of one or another thought, which were developed in a way that I can’t believe it was a year ago when I hadn’t spent 1/3 of the time I’ve spent by now. I want to say that from any rational point of view it looks weird that after thousands of hours of practice—and I don’t exaggerate by saying thousands—there are no noticeable results. I can’t deny that I became good at reading and what was almost impossible then now is a usual thing, but what’s about my writing? I’m writing almost every day; I’m doing the exercise “hour of thinking”; I endeavor to do everything to improve my writing. Why is it so slow? Is it really natural? With regards to the theory by the time I had to be as good in writing in English as I was in writing in Russian at the end of 2012. If I take my notes which I did in Russian at the beginning of 2012 and compare them with notes that were made at the end of that year it would seem like two different people wrote them. But if I take my current writing and compare it with what was written at the last August it would be almost the same! Well, it’s complaining, isn’t it? No. I’m just trying to analyze my work in order to find ways how I can make it more effective. Perhaps I had to change my method long ago. It certainly requires some updates.

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