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Charles Dickens “The Personal History if David Copperfield”, Speaking Club.
Perhaps, in order to go ahead, I need to focus on my life in general instead of complaining about the low quality of my writing. Five years ago I didn’t even care about such questions like, “Do I write good enough?” I simply was analyzing my actions and wrote my thoughts with as much honesty as it was possible. The same should be done now. What a fool I am when I’m worrying about beauty of my language. It only must be certain. If I don’t deceive myself and observe thoroughly the stream of my consciousness, which goes through my mind daily, it’s totally sufficient to use my current language without wasting time and energy by worrying about its quality. Now I definitely can say everything I want, even if sometimes I have to apply a vague definition instead of a precise word that I don’t know. That’s fine, and it’s better to ask myself some vital questions and try to answer them here. Sometimes there are days when I just don’t wanna write or when my thoughts roam around so that it’s difficult to concentrate on something. In that case I may use my old habits and fill these pages with meaningless trash to remain on the flow. Everything is alright with my language, and it is developing exactly as it has to. There are so many important things which demand my attention; I still can’t get over after the last disease; my physical condition is awful comparatively with what was a month ago; I don’t have any clear idea about the near future. What else? My writing…

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