Mind Transformation 375

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Dickens. Behavior Biology 5.
My health is coming back. I no longer suffer from pain, though my body still works unwillingly. Needless to say, there is the sheer lack of exercises that makes me feel weak. I take several walks every day, but they are short, and then most of the time I spend lying in bed. I would like to reestablish my mourning routine, but I’m still afraid of unpleasant consequences. When I tried to do that last few times it brought the damn headache. So now I rather wait till there is no any danger and all symptoms of the disease sweep away.
I want to point out that my wish to play video games was nourished by watching streams, and now it’s becoming a problem. Today I was close to playing and only a really strong reflection upon that matter helped me to prevent a bloody catastrophe. I promised to myself no to do that. I have to keep the promise. I don’t want to fall into that stupid entertaining abyss again. And I also don’t want to repeat the common mistake which is allowing a few games for the sake of relaxation. I can’t simply release my playful demon for a couple of hours. It’ll take half a year to catch him then. Please, no!

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