Mind Transformation 380

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Dickens. Behavioral Biology 9. Baudrillard “Simulacra and Simulation”.
d – 30, s - 1.
Recovered my old exercise: reading aloud by repeating after a speaker. The book which I took for this exercise was “Simulacra and Simulation”. I’ve found it quite pleasurable. Perhaps it was one of the most beneficial exercises to improve my pronunciation—something that helped me a lot to feel more confident while talking and reduced my accent to some degree.
So, again, I’m working on many small “projects”, which seem exciting, though I don’t actually feel that way. For me it’s more suitable to focus on something particular, but now I have no strong inclination to this or that goal. I would like to watch all behavioral biology lectures at once, but it requires more energy than I currently have. After an hour of listening to Mr. Sapolsky, I have an irresistible desire to shift to something else or even to play videogames. That’s right! I’ve noticed that this desire to play videogames appears quite often while I’m watching these lectures, but it’s not a sufficient reason to give up. Yea, this course has become a little bit boring; at the beginning it was much better. However, I still have some insights while watching it, and by the way, it’s a course of lectures—not just some silly performance on YouTube made to entertain me. At least, after listening to the whole course, I’ll be able to say whether it was valuable or not. I can allow myself to invest 30 hours in making such experiments. I wanna learn to watch things which are not necessarily funny and fascinating. To develop a habit to watch a 90 minute lecture every day is one of my nearest aims. Just imagine over 300 lectures per year. It’s like 15 different courses. That’s interesting. But what if I focus only on these lectures? I mean, what if I watch lectures 10 hours a day? How many courses may I get through per year in that case? Well, it depends on how fast I become mad.

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