Mind Transformation 391

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Hoge. Biology. Dickens.
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I think the awkwardness which took place yesterday can be explained by means of having more projects than I’m able to handle. Oh, if only I had been able to read Dickens’ novel from the beginning to the end at once, I wouldn’t have had a need to complain. If I had been able to focus on Sapolsky’s lectures watching them for a couple of days uninterruptedly, I would have written only about it here without thinking of whether it deserves to be mentioned or not. However, I have to write about everything I do, and sometimes it’s quite difficult to choose between this or that. Perhaps I must concentrate on something what is most important for me now or what I want to understand better than everything else and write about it leaving all other things aside. No doubt, the course of lectures by Sapolsky is the most important project, which, as it could be seen through my last notes, hardly was considered at all on these pages. Ironically, it’s the most important and least analyzed project I’m working on now. I have, of course, a reasonable excuse—that is protecting this journal from turning into a sort of dry study notes and unwillingness to force myself to write about the same things over and over again. At the end of the day, I’m watching these lectures not because I want to become an evolutionary biologist but rather for training my attention. I already mentioned that I want to organize myself to watch as many great lectures as possible, and the issue is to learn to do it even if there is a big lack of comprehension. It’s like learning languages: In the beginning you watch and listen to a new language understanding nothing. But if you have enough power to sustain till you’re able to distinguish nouns from verbs and adjectives—at some point the difference between studying and using will fade away.

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