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Things are getting better. Today I felt powerful and did a lot of useful stuff. Before having breakfast I accomplished a set of exercises and recorded a self-talk. Then I was reading for about an hour and after that worked on new words. Afterwards, I studied grammar with Murphy’s book and watched one video on Engvid. I also watched a couple of videos about self-discipline. Then I worked on my journals, had lunch, and went for a walk. Getting back, I spent a little time by reading and then did evening exercises simultaneously watching actualizedotorg. Eventually I ended up with learning German which I put another hour in, feeling quite remarkable during the process. Well, that’s how I’ve got through the day. Of course, that’s not an ideal day, but anyway—
In the evening I thought about video games, but not as about something I wanted to do, but rather as about something I wanted to figure out better. It’s quite easy to compare this addiction with the drug addiction and conclude that it makes the ‘real’ world look like meaningless stupidity. That’s true and it requires time to recover from addiction to video games to see the beauty of life and feel something towards her again.
It actually requires lots of time to make my head clean enough in order to get the access to deep thoughts. I guess at least several months should pass till I’m able to discern something remarkable from this trivial, daily train of thoughts. It may be speeded up by doing right actions and the real commitment to the inner work, but it’s still not a couple of days and even a week. Well, let’s see how much time will pass till I begin writing something really profound.

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