The Death of a Voluntary Project

BIG BOSSES

The official bosses of my volunteering –the biggest organization in the country which cares for kids with autism, suddenly decided to use my help. They wanted to meet and I came as soon as possible. They announced that I should make a presentation of my system to parents and professionals at the University for Autism Day. The thing for me was new and unknown. I’m not a public person-especially public speaker. What to talk about? For me parents and specialists are very different audiences and for them there should be quite different content. But the bosses were not interested in this, speak what you want to speak about. Ok-I'll say something. And what is the purpose of my speech? It also does not matter. Very strange and my constantly investigating mind naturally got busy with the puzzle
The organization consists from a family-mom, dad and son. The official head-dad, but in fact mom is the main boss. The son  turned out to be flexible. Some day by mistake we met with him one to one and had great mutual understanding conversation.

He expressed the desire  to help me in my goals and as usual “my wings rose”.
Stupid habit-to believe what people say. But I think the place of my current residency will help me to get rid of this quickly. The promises of help turned out to be empty words. I think Mom intervened in son's desire to cooperate with me, because when next time we met and the whole family were present the son behaved completely different-it was a different person.  Mom was born in the city where I lived and knew there “every dog”. She promised to introduce me to the parents of autistic children, but then she  changed her mind. The date of my speech was supposed to be introduced on certain day….but nothing happened ... .. very strange and incomprehensible behavior

WHAT BOSSES WANTED…

After the renewed of voluntary contract they called me again and in the presence of the whole family the son pressed with the presentation and again nothing is clear, and Autism Month has ended already
They wanted presentation with unknown for me purpose. This topic they did not want to discuss. I picked up some untruthful information in son’s words as the last time it was one info and this time it was the opposite. My mind always focused on truthful stuff and automatically picking up the contradictory stuff. AS the red lamp immediately turned on inside... Attention!!!
Finally Mom decided first to do presentation for parents in my town and then presentation in their town –a capital city- for professionals. We even made a date as Mom had a family event that day
As I was in a process of moving it was not simple for me to arrange? so I asked for how many parents I’d have to prepare a place for. The answer was as usual-I’d know that in a day of presentation…..

HOPES and REALITY

In a day of presentation I got a call that Mom with translator will come. What about parents? Translator will be a parent…..I knew….OK... I felt that Mom would cheat me again and would not introduce me to parents….Well,it came out to be the Truth. Mom brought a businessman from another city-a parent of a child with autism. I tried to put the conversation to topic of his son asking him to tell me about his son. The answer was short-“ The son is tall and made moving with his hands-”like that as if he described the item…Father cannot do more. I tried to put the conversation to the topic of my approach to those kids-no interest.

Finally they put a conversation to the right direction-a business. I have to go different places including his city to do presentation and Mom added-voluntarily means for free. Mom sold me out to her “colleague in business”…not sold out forever…maybe just offered for temporary use or had some deals with them “ чтоб добро не пропадало» until she'd find another use

When I finally got the real Truth and saw what my hope to help autistic kids  by volunteering came to it was some relief. There is always forces to make money using autism  and it’s not easy to avoid it. But I am “experienced kolobok”, so they got nothing from me and I habitually listened to usual complain about the lack of time to spent with kids and lack of money to pay bills . Also I’ve learned that official cause for autism adapted here is vaccine and ABA and medication is a solution.

In the end Mom promised to bring real parents for presentation next day and also help with moving my stuff…..we parted with hugs……She called me in a few days saying that she is in the hospital , but nothing serious and that her son will call me later. Probable she got a new idea to use me, but probable it was not practical either and I never heard from her again

But….when I went to the mayor of our town with my suggestion he told me “not to worry-everything is under care” and soon they are going to open a new center for autistic kids with 12 specialists…..Then the real purpose of Mom coming to the city became clear….
I was told  to be carefully as I became her competitor

Well Mom opened a huge center. Invested big money. Expensive equipment from England and other countries. When I've learn it I wrote her with suggestion of my project going along with her Center. But my idea focused on kids and not for profits, so Mom didn't respond
And then I stepped to dangerous path-I wanted to be independent and those desires often end up in Hell where I eventually found myself