What Is Love?

What is love?
Oh baby, don't hurt me
Don't hurt me
No more

Such a deep wound! .. creativity is my salvation, a source of happiness ...
I am sitting in my place of solitude ... the beginning of summer, June ... starting of OUR TIME.

Again and again I ask myself: “Why? Why have you done this?” It’s not like I don’t understand you at all but I see many reasons ... which one pulled the trigger of your anger? ..

I think: you waited so long, always came and waited for me to speak ... you thought, I loved so much - I couldn’t hold out without you ... but you see, my love, my source of happiness is hidden deep inside of me, and not in someone else. In the end, after a year and a half of silence, you called yourself... a couple of days after I released "Kama".

At first you spoke simply and humbly, and just as easily I answered you. Did you perhaps expect something else?

Are you angry that you didn’t get it?

Or did jealousy start to go off scale?

Yes, you knew that I spoke with him, but you did not know what and how... I understand it hurt you.

But you have to understand me as well: I’m not just a woman who loves ... God put into my soul thirst for deep insight into the essence of things, provided me with everything necessary for research and showered me with gifts so that I could share, could express what I see, feel and understand.

It's my calling, my mission in this world - I cannot ignore it, the voice and will of God are more significant than ANY human relationship.

But you let the pain go, forget this jealousy, forgive me for causing it to you, as I always forgive you, because I loved and love only you.

You are not alone, I know...

Our farewell was beautiful: "We both have strong bounding, unmatchable."

It's true, my disagreement was a simple desire to make you think: then why are you not with me? But in fact it doesn't matter. Wife, children - all these earthly things will pass.

Only those feelings and connections that pass with us into eternity are true.

I don’t know if ours will transfer, but for now... "I was thinking about you today so I thought I should drop a message".

Just today? Don't lie! You always, relentlessly are thinking of me. We are always together!

My love is not about how to live and sleep together, and not even about having a baby.

My love is to help you through this Divine energy to recreate your best, that beautiful pure gentle strong Angel that Lord has allowed me to see in you... That's who I love and can’t forget, that's who I’m talking to now ... And that's why it hurts me when you turn into a beast and spew dirty words...

My soul speaks to me: look, child, this whole world is created for you! For you sunsets and sunrises, for you apple trees bloom around and give the fragrance, for you a nightingale sings ... yes, he is singing now, flooding with inspiration and selflessly, but ... but I need only you.

Is this my stupid heart or ... this what love is?

Novel "Natalie: Art of Living"