Предчувствие

Беленький ноутбук Натали расположился на кровати. Роутер был установлен в офисе, в соседнем здании, связь через вайфай в этой комнате оставляла желать лучшего. Но всё же Натали внутренне радостно встрепенулась, когда в скайпе показался Амир. Пусть всё вокруг меняется, это пока оставалось неизменным: и его появление, и та волнующая радость, которую Натали при этом чувствовала.

[29.07.201* 19:51:29] Аmir: ???

Natalie: why just questions? normally ppl say hi and I just came, i'll be very busy here...

Аmir: Hi

Natalie: big family, a lot of duties… hi, ya :)

Аmir: so you reached already, good

Natalie: yea, I am here since morning

Аmir: very nice

Natalie: finished? then tell me bye

Аmir: no, open your cam

Natalie: do you have cam as well?

Аmir: yes

Natalie: then pls wait a bit, I'll back in 5 min...

Аmir: why??

Natalie: but I feel like you really don't want to talk to me

Natalie: because we just finished with supper... you may call but I don't like you to see me today

Аmir: why?? what happened?

Natalie: look I told you when I am at a new place I don't look good for some days… then I got up very early, all such things

Аmir: ok as you wish

Natalie: I can call and see you, possible?

Аmir: nope

Natalie: Аmir, pls don't behave like this, I am far from home for the first day and this is not easy for me, as a friend you should help and support

Аmir: i am far from home from last 1 year, not easy for me either

Natalie: yea, but I never try to do things hard for you, right? I behave friendly... if you don't want to talk to me... just tell me something good and we will stop

Аmir: you are very beautiful

Natalie: ok, thnx... good night

Аmir: good night

Natalie: can you talk a bit to me, not type? I wanna hear you

Аmir: tomorrow, friends are with me so can't talk now

Natalie: not sure about tomorrow, I almost have no time, it's very different from what I had before... yea, but tell me honestly, it feels like you don't wana talk to me some last days, you even didn't wish me a good journey

Аmir: no, honey, it's not like that ... i am sorry but i was a bit busy in last some days

Natalie: ok... it was so easy to say... you know you have such meaning for me so it made me really sad that other ppl care a lot and you don't

Аmir: Nat, i am sorry

Natalie: ok, I AM ALSO SORRY! Let’s see what tomorrow brings

Аmir: i care a lot but…

Natalie: I am a bit upset

Аmir: why upset? ok, let me make it good for you, i am opening my webcam for you

*** Call from Аmir ***

Аmir: can you see me??

Natalie: yea, I can

Аmir: now feeling good? don't be upset and yes, i care about you

Natalie: a bit better, thx... want to talk

Аmir: Natalie, not now

Natalie: today this Olga, my relative, with me till tomorrow evening but I will feel very lonely here when she leaves

Аmir: don't worry, i am with you to give you company ok?

Natalie: no, Аmir! today you are with me but who knows what will be tomorrow, you know how close you are to me

Аmir: Natalie, please don't say that

Natalie: why? you are very close and if you don't talk to me...

Аmir: i told you, i have to control my feelings

Natalie: or behave wrong it feels very hard and I think there is no any feeling any more

Аmir: it's not like i don't want to talk to you, friends are with me

Natalie: ok, may be

Аmir: so did you like the people?

Natalie: yea, they are good

Аmir: and they like you?

Natalie: yea... maybe I just tired but feeling sad for this first day

Аmir: do not feel bad because you are fine... can i see you for a minute?

Natalie: I just wept... when we started to talk

Аmir: why??.. you are looking nice

Natalie: why? it was like this from early morning: I enjoyed the flight a lot but then in airport I couldn't find my luggage for so long

Аmir: oh GOD then????

Natalie: then I felt like this, wanted to cry because at first my phone also was without connection so I was a bit nervous and I had such short sleep

Аmir: i can understand, you must sleep now for some time

Natalie: yea, so now in the end of the day when you started and then didn't want to continue it was really too much for me so I cried a bit...

Аmir: ok, smile now

Natalie: Аmir... I will do when I want... you ask me to smile but almost never do yourself, only when we talk, then you do

Аmir: yea, i don’t like to smile

Natalie: you will smile all the time if we meet, believe me! but now seems like it never happen

*** Call ended, duration 20:27 ***

Выключив скайп, она внезапно почувствовала острую грусть – его грусть. Амир до последнего надеялся, что встреча возможна, что эта её затея с Германией – лишь шутка или обман, но всё оказалось правдой. Она была где-то там, в чужой стране, так далеко, недосягаемо далеко от него.

И он решил всерьёз переключиться на Николь.

Натали показалось, это их последний разговор... Никакой встречи никогда не будет. Но, как и первое впечатление, предчувствие тоже может быть обманчивым...

http://proza.ru/2020/06/23/934
Роман "Натали: искусство жить"
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