I must give myself up

 Nice or bad things come along when you least expect them.
All kinds of thoughts and emotions come over me due to the impression I have got now. The more I read you the stronger my impression becomes. I’m carried away by the beauty of your mind. I must confess I’m totally besotted because of this.
I wish I never read any word  that come from you. I  wish I never dive into them with all my heart and mind. I wish  I could take them easily. I wish I never trapped into the magic net of your dreams and conclusions.
You don’t even realize how skilful spider you are with your words.  Your attitude towards life accompanies mine.  I love each word that was born by you. I’m addicted  to your writings with all possible mental power I have got inside myself.  I feel I  literally dissolve into each sentence you write.
Gradually I’m drowning  into the quagmire of your and mine  emotions and conclusions.
 I had no experience of such impact before.  After the long hours of thinking and analyzing what’s going on with me I decided to set myself free from thousands thoughts about power of your words which come through my minds all day long.
I struggle with myself and hope after some time of silence between us, my insanity that was caused due to  your presence around will have started to clear up. I want to be indifferent to you. I want to get my normal life and clear thoughts back to me again.
 You’ll probably say:” It’s not a time yet” But with all  my respect and devotion to you I must give myself up.
I can’t cope with my addiction to your words anymore.
Give me a chance to recover myself after the turbulent stream of emotions I got.

29 August 2012