I am so Tired...

I am so Tired…

I am so tired of not being good enough.
(From a Letter)

Dear Friend!
I wish I could tell you a story about a boy…
Once upon a time, there lived a small boy. He was a bit different from other peers of his.
None taught him that each and every one was peculiar as an individual. 

But he had to come to those special conclusions by himself. So he used to sit all alone and thought and thought and thought. He was still young to get enrolled into a library for adults and, thus, be able to read books on philosophy. (As you may understand, the Internet did not exist in those days).

This fact did not really bother the youth as he could "sharpen" his analytical thinking skills which he had inherited from his Dad.

The complex that could be put in a nutshell: "I am not good enough…" was skyrocketing so fast, that pretty soon the young man felt himself as first-grade "outcast"…

"I am not good enough since…
- I am bad at any exact sciences…
- I cannot find a female who might accept me a male…
- I am not built for a family, so I will stay alone forever…"


Years passed by, but "the inner flame of self-dissatisfaction" was still blazing inside his heart. He felt as if he would "burn out to ashes" unless he altered his attitude to himself…

One day, he woke up with a determined decision: "I am NOT bad… It is my own way. It is my full right to go my way…"

Since that day his life made a new positive turn…