Doubtful Love

N: why are you so afraid just to see me? What’s the problem?

A: i am not afraid but i know if I see you i will not be able to live without you

N: ok, let's check… interesting! I am not SO sure but I want it real... just talking is not something real for me

A: ok

N: and now you are again with someone… talking?

A: no. Who is online this time? no one, it’s just you whom i am talking to

N: I have 3 friends online but don't want to talk to them

A: why

N: Amir, normally I don't like to talk a lot, it was just an exception for you

A: yea, i know, thanks Nadia... you are really an angel

N: no, you will see, normal human, not an angel at all

A: for me you are… a very kind and patient human, very rare to find someone like you

N: so WHY then you are with her? interesting question

A: because i believe on one thing: don’t marry someone whom you love, marry someone who loves you and she is ready to do anything for me, anything

N: why?

A: because man's love can be doubtful but girl’s love is very strong
with you i have a problem: my family will not accept you cause you are a non-muslim

N: and she? Is she a muslim?

A: she is converting, studying islam these days and even when i met her for the first time she came to just observe islamic society in DUBAI

N: ok, but why then you told me in the beginning NO PROBLEM?

A: Nadia let’s just forget about it cause i accept all is my mistake,  i did everything wrong, made you hurt

N: Amir, can you understand how it’s difficult for me now?...

A: i know Nadia

N: When you deleted yourself in fact I felt easy.... but I knew you would be back
I am not just rare woman

A: i know, you are princess

N: I am a woman one can meet only once, Amir

N: no, I am not any princess

A: yes, you are for me
Nadia, you are very amazing human, honestly, i never met a girl like you and i have tried a lot to forget you but i feel peace when i use to be with you, feel great

N: so let's meet once

A: sure i am ready for it

N: if even we won't stay together. I just want to know what it is

A: but i can not be in relation with you, i am so sorry, Nadia, i think i don’t deserve you, you are a princess and you deserve a prince

N: Amir, I don't want such talks, all I want just to meet and to see what is it for me

A: ok sure

N: because in this way it is like unfinished story… then I will know if I really feel anything or it was just a dream and then I will feel free and can be happy again

A: let’s meet then, November is fine for me

N: I will book ticket from Germany, so don't change your mind again, pls… I’m not SOOOOOOO dangerous

A: hhahahahah, no, don’t worry

N: I will come just for one week, simple to see you, nothing else

A: ok

N: now I don't wana talk more so bye

A: why?

N: enough for me, Amir

A: even i say i came just to talk to you

N: we can talk a bit later in evening, now I don't want more

A: ok as you say

N: bye! :)

A: take care
and thanks a lot for your time Nadia
miss you
bye