2015 in English

So sorry that I don't understand you, that I cannot enter your heart and see what is written there... who's name is hidden in the depth...

This is where it came to, in the end: the very thought of you or men generally makes me feel nauseous... although in a dream last night we made love so that I could get pregnant...

But in the morning: "Oh, no! This is a nightmare!"

How everything changes in life!

You see how different we are. I feel so hard without you, to death, and no one can replace you but for you it's always so easy to find a replacement for me, every time...

How my leg hurts... how my soul hurts...

And also those eyes of yours, your face with its always ambivalent expression - there is always some kind of bitterness, of universal sadness at the bottom...

How I love you!

I knew I loved, but I didn't know how much.

Without love life is empty, meaningless and almost unbearable... The magic of love has gone, everything is so mundane, uninteresting. It's difficult to endure earthly life without love, I just endure it as pain.

How stupid you are - I went through such a school relationship that all this is nothing to me. You just can't do anything to me with manipulations. Only true feelings and true reasons work!

Yes, love must be protected, otherwise it could be destroyed…. But it seems to me that both - our love and you - still have great potential.

Lord is  telling me: "Wait and you will see" but I'm already sick of this endless waiting!

I want to sleep, but someone does not allow, as if pulling me out of sleep by legs.

Oh, how thin you became, dear boy!

And such a mixture of happiness and suffering in the eyes, in the corners of the lips, in a smile...

I did not expect you would suffer our break up like that.

Even when you broke up with her you didn't lost your weight like now...

Body language couldn't lie, didn't you know? You love me the most... same like I do. So we were suffering these days together, as it turns out.