A strange dream after Sadhguru

I walked in a library, there were many books - Shiva Sutra and other holy literature without letters. It was written Khanda, the Sikh symbol. I was giving to all employees of the library prasad (the cakes). That was only my dream of course that happened after Sadhguru blessed my Rudraksha mala. I was in meditation during he was doing, but I definitely remember how it seemed like a flame appeared in my mind like a lightning, then next it disappeared. I felt a strange vibration in my legs two days after the initiation. In addition to this it seemed like my soul wanted to pick me up away from here.

The nesxt time Sadhguru spent satsang with us online where we all dived into meditation. He adviced that we visualize his image diving with us into an ocean floor. I did everything what he said and I suddenly felt that I reached this depth! For the first time in my life my thoughts didn't cavort like horses! That was the depth of meditation that I always dreamed about! I really liked that state of thoughtlessness which I had not been able to reach before!

I understand that Shiva's practices and meditations are still hard for me, but I gonna keep training. I have been reaching enlightenment since 2006 year, when I watched a film "The Witch" based on the Nikolay Gogol's book. I while suddenly asked myself what the God is and started exploring Him immediately. One thing I know for sure - my way is still going on. And it will never stop as long as my Atman is eternal and immortal.

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"He said, "Blessed One, what was the reason and what was the condition for that man to be born equal in fortune to the devas of the Heaven of Thirty-Three?"
The Blessed One said:"Listen to Bhaishajya-sena. That man, at his time of death, with a mind of faith in the Tathagata, said one time,"I prostrate to the Buddha". Bhaishajya-sena, due to that root of virtue, he will experience the happiness of the devas of the Thirty-Three for sixty eons. For eighty eons he will recollect past lives. Life after life, he will be free of all painful sorrows. As soon as he is born, he will ward off all sufferings. Those sentient beings are all unable to fully overcome sorrow".

Sanghata Sutra