The chunk 90 The message -550-

We see the moon and it seems to be yellow. It doesn't mean that it is yellow.
Life in Algeria, in its boring, dirty and poor town, seemed unbearable to Ahmed. He dreamed about a trip to Japan, or to France, to Sarah. "It would be fine to go out, at least, for a week..." he thought. But all the borders were strictly closed, the countries were sealed. People and governments at large were scared.


Мы видим на луну и она кажется желтой. Это не означает того, что она действительно желтая.
Жизнь в Алжире, в его скучном грязноватом и бедном городке, казалась Ахмеду невыносимой. Он всей душой стремился в Японию, или во Францию, к Саре. “Хотя бы выехать на неделю…” — обдумывал он. Но все границы были строго закрыты, страны запечатаны. Люди и правительства напуганы.

The message - 214-
02/05
People, it seems, have a wave nature: there are many cycles when a person shrinks in a dot when forced to perform physiological functions, including pain and then expands as wide as his imagined potential garbage allows him.

I am going to do an experiment.
I am going to invite that black guy, who was my first English teacher in 2014. I liked him. These six years changed us both: can you imagine a guy in the age 23 and 29, and a woman in 40 and in 46? I see, you can: you see how you've changed outside and inside looking at yourself in a mirror daily. Interesting, how living in Russia has changed him.
Honestly, I remembered him all these years. I was afraid of him and his temper. Each day I had him in my head. Now you are in my head daily.

You became my obsession now, but, honestly, I love only your empty shell. I love, adore your hands: they are hairless, tender, soft, accurate, and kind. I love your ears: the beautiful form of each twiddle fascinates me. I love that place wrinkled in the middle, hiding in the center of the flower the soft sweet pistil, that however is not female and promises to be resilient and persistent. I love the outlines of your face features, I can watch for hours the meek pretty lines that are drawn by your skull bones. I love your bright eyes. I like your gestalt, love each move and rotation of your body. Handsome man, no more yet..unfortunately. Also, all those photos always were in such bad quality as if you deliberately used photo refiner filters. I've never used it.

This meeting scares me. But I want to correct the mistake I always made. I avoided meeting with my obsessions. Always. It always was so difficult and hurting to confess to someone my feelings..I always hid myself. You are the first I told. But..you are just a shadow of a man.

Макото 14
02/05
I sometimes think about my existence.
You need it, right?
I hope it helps you a little.
My photographs and videos are often taken in hopes of relaxing you.
I think I will have fewer opportunities because of work from tomorrow, but I will send it if I have a little time to send it.
Thank you
I think that there are places where you can walk casually and enjoy beautiful flowers and scenery.
I wouldn't have taken a flower before.
It was only cherry blossoms that took flowers.
I thought there were many things I was not aware of.
It may be that I haven't noticed it yet.
I think there is something better for you.
Yes, I think there will be new discoveries in the future.
I would like to continue to be the person you need.
I also want to be able to maintain a good relationship.
Have a good break.
I'm watching you from Japan.
my short poem