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There wasn't much time left until the end of the semester, and lazy students needed to be encouraged to take their term papers. Still, out of boredom, in gaps between lectures, Ahmed occasionally met notifications of messages and photos from Olga, and sometimes he even read them without logging into the account. She wrote in terrible English, and many things were incomprehensible...and in general, errors and clumsy phrases were annoying. The things she talked about and the thoughts she expressed seemed incomprehensible and vague, or primitive and banal. He was not interested in this kind of reading. Each time he rolled his eyes, grinning..


Времени до конца семестра оставалось мало, нужно подгонять ленивых студентов сдавать курсовые. Все же от скуки, в перерывах между лекциями, Ахмед изредка встречал уведомления сообщений и фотографии от Ольги, иногда даже читал, не заходя в аккаунт. Она писала на ужасном английском, многое было непонятно...да и вообще раздражали ошибки и корявые фразы. Вещи, о которых она говорила, и мысли, которые она излагала, казались непонятными и туманными, или примитивными и банальными. Ему было неинтересно, он закатывал глаза, усмехаясь..


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Hello Ahmed.
03/05
Some people can turn off the sense of pain using different ways.
As I remember, but I am not sure: I always mislead all facts, Pascal had constant huge headaches. Solving math tasks helped him to forget about the suffering for a while.

When I visit a dentist or cosmetologist doing pain procedures, I inflict pain somewhere else on my body, usually sticking a finger with nails to decrease the other pain.
I read about experiments with LSD that were controlled with psychiatrists. The direct result of that experience was that people forgot their pain, exactly their view of pain was changed. The earlier horrible pain became tolerable. They described given experience as mind expansion. They felt unity, an accord with each thing, each atom in the world. They were everywhere in one moment. Not all people had the effect, however.

Indian fakirs use methods that they invent, each of them personally for himself.

Adepts of martial arts are taught to cope with pain with specific ways of breathing, psychology practice. I know not much of it, but I guess their methods are close to Indian inventors, but more scientific.

Hypnosis also helps to turn off pain.

Also, anesthetic drugs are the stop valve of pain.

A radical way to stop pain is destroying the nerves which join the place where there is a source and a location of the pain.

I am weak. I suffer even from freezing or cold rain. But when I was a kid, my aunt told me, she saw I pressed a thin blade in my fist, then I broke it into pieces. My palm was bleeding. I looked at my hand in cold silence, with an interest. I was a small child then. I don't remember this. Now I avoid a tiny pain. I love pain in all over my body after training, but I would never allow someone to inflict pain on me.
Today my breast hurt. It occurred to me, I'll die soon. I don't feel any regret. I would have read Baudelaire in this case, all the three months that I would have had left. But I read it twenty years ago. Forgot all the verses. Might confuse myself all over again. If I die, I will die with fine sad music :)
Oh, my god, what bullshit garbage have I written!
I try to imagine a person who deliberately agrees to suffer from pain and inflicts pain on other people.

Макото 15
03/05
I always have a thought.
You can change your appearance, but you can't change your personality.
I have never really thought about hair color or skin color.
It doesn't matter.
A photo of you looks even better when you know your personality.
I think women will be infinitely beautiful. No matter how old you are. Compassion and kindness can be seen in facial expressions.
Perhaps fashion and makeup will change if you are aware of the other person.
But if the inside is clean, I don't think so.
I'm sure it will be clean.
From the first photo
It looks much better now.
So your picture.
Did you like it more?
I had an image of sleeping next to me for a moment. (Lol)
It may be the same for men.
I have to polish myself more.
This week will be a rainy weekend.
If you can't walk, I'll send you a video message.
Have a great weekend.
Also, please send us your photos and videos when you have time.
Smile if you can. Yes, I love your smile.
my short poem