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Sarah called Ahmed, kidding, “Amurai”, and their joint exercises on nights as "L'amurkido", although, strictly speaking, she ought not to change the name: the pronounced word "ai“ can be written in different hieroglyphs, and it has in Japanese at least two meanings: ”a love“ and ”a harmony — something fitted for something". And if the hieroglyph “love” is combined with "kido”-hieroglyph, the meaning will be something like "air love, love through the air, through the ether" — which, in fact, was the case with this couple. They loved each other and joined in a single ecstasy across a gigantic distance. She didn't feel anything vulgar or rude. She just loved..

Сара называла Ахмеда, шутя, “Амурай”, а их совместные упражнения по ночам “L’amurkido”, хотя, строго говоря, название можно было бы и не менять: произносимое слово “ай” можно записать разными иероглифами, и на японском имеет, как минимум, два значения: “любовь” и “гармония, подходить для чего-то”. А если иероглиф “любовь” соединить с “кидо”, значение получится что-то вроде “воздушная любовь, любовь по воздуху, через эфир”. Что, собственно, и происходило с этой парой. Они любили друг друга и соединялись в едином экстазе через гигантское расстояние. Ничего пошлого и грубого Сара не чувствовала. Она просто любила.


The message - 217-
05/05
Hello sheikh Ahmed!
If people call you by such respected word,
I should trust them and have to think
about you in a similar manner, shouldn't I?
But when I recall that you probably called people, who respect you, as "idiots", I don't know what to think, again. Not because you dislike them, but because what you said was very rude and evil, as I felt, not wearily or good humouredly.
My opinion is if you are noble in one way, you are noble in everything. It's impossible, to be a partly moral person as it is impossible to be a bit pregnant, or to be a bit father, to be partly human being, or a bit zero.
You are or you are not. Sheikh is a very strong word. So, one or the other: you are noble or they are idiots.

The message - 218-
I made acquaintances with several Algerians from the East of the PenPals app. One of them lives in Biskra now. They have similar manners and style in conversation compared to yours, not depending on their age. It's no wonder, you all belong to one country's culture. One of them, young, is Chaoui from the East. I noticed there are not many guys in the East who are able to speak English well. But the adult guy from Biskra has good English. I ceased all conversations with Algerians now, they are not curious about Russia or friendship with an adult woman. You are an exception. You made so many awkward strange steps, I am more and more curious about you, my Ahmed, Ahmed, Ahmed!
I miss you. I want to eat you, swallow you whole, Ahmed. Are you afraid of a wolf in the skin of a sheep? I tend to think, not, but...
*My last name is Volkova, which has the root word "волк", in English "wolf". "A wolf in the skin of a sheep" is a metaphor from the Bible. I am not a noble man, so this metaphor could be applicable to me due to the fact that I am often wrong, I make mistakes, and then, when I change my opinion and say other or opposite things, it looks like I am a liar or hypocrite. Also, I tend to not properly and clearly explain my worldview to other people. For me, what’s  more important is, if I understand something. I usually avoid sharing with others all the details because it's boring and I don't love arguing.

The videos..It was my office, also a part of me, because that’s where I spent a huge part of my life. Daily, the same actions, boring routine, and the same things. The most interesting things are different people, different couples. I see most of them once or twice. Some of them come to me every month during half of the year if one buys furniture on credit.

It's curious to watch people throughout the different stages of a deal after they've decided they can trust me and agree on the deal. Each visitor who makes an order, at the end of all the long many small actions that the deal requires, feels relieved and starts to tell me about his life, or is kidding, or is saying his thanks. I always say at the end of each deal, "I congratulate you with purchase of ownership of the furniture. “I wish you a nice assembly”. They always laugh.

Макото 17
05/05
It is the current situation and way of thinking.
I am now sharing an apartment with my separated wife.
I'm friends now.
She works night shifts, so I rarely fit her face because I am a day shifter.
I'm often asked, but I wonder if there will be a return.
Not 100%. I don't do any housework.
The rent is 50-50.
If I find someone who needs me, I will sell the house.
Of course I need him too.
Domestic or overseas. She agrees.
I can think of it now, but at that time it was annoying to be shy and emotional.
I think I didn't have compassion.
I killed my feelings in my childhood with my father's violence and bullying.
I was acting alone until my mid-30s.
I went swimming every week.
I may be weak in romance because I have little experience.
I wonder if the heart of the other person is still reading well.
To be honest, I'm not confident about myself yet.
If you have a boyfriend or someone you like, please let me know.
I'm not kidding.
Show your facial expressions as much as possible in photos and videos.
I want to see if I'm fine.