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It seemed to Olga that Ahmed’s posts somehow correlated with the texts that she sent him and continued to send. He seemed to be involved in the game and presented his own rules of the game. She became even more convinced of her assumptions when she came across a Latin expression in one of his posts: recently she used one, too.
Nevertheless, she was intellectually inclined to ignore coincidences, and with her heart, she wished that the untruth was true.


Ольге казалось, что посты Ахмеда как-то коррелировали с теми текстами, которые она ему отправила и продолжала отправлять. Он как будто включился в игру и предъявил свои правила игры. Она еще более убедилась в своих предположениях, когда встретила латинское выражение в одном из его постов.
Все же она была склонна умом не замечать совпадений, а сердцем желала чтобы умозрительная неправда оказалась правдой. 


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12/07/20
Hello,  Ahmed.
I would like to say "I love you bro!", but I must not: it is absolutely male to address. When I was about ten-eleven or earlier, I don't remember exactly, somebody from my besties had caught me when I called myself so as if I was a male person. In Russian, we use the end-particles in the past tense to show the gender of the speaker. So, I used the ends of verbs that showed I am a boy, not a girl.
I used to read a lot at that time. Almost all books were written by male persons, so I got used to thinking like they were written and I repeated that specifical language. It took some time (till twenty-five, I think) before I started using only female language in my head. For a long time, I even didn't like that language.
Sometimes I listen to lectures from psychologists. And the last speaker talked about gender differenсes in languages and talked about the Japanese language. I had known that many girls and boys in Japan start using appropriate gender pronounсes the more intensively the older they get.
Also, such gender differenсes in languages show the real relationships between men and women in society, but not always the current situation. For example in Japan women had the lowest position till the second world war. And now the language still has many gender-related signs despite the value of women has increased in Japan. Language lags behind changes in society.

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Hello Ahmed,
Our firm makes furniture. Usually, customers give us a prepayment of 70%. And the rest of the sum is paid after the furniture is set in their rooms. We also have a system of down payments without any banks. And prepayment here is only 50% that is often less than our expenditure for materials for furniture manufacturing. We take all the risks for cases when someone never pays us because it would be a long and expensive procedure for us to get money from such customers through the court. All the rest of the firms where I worked earlier never set furniture before they received all the money. Here, I have only one girl who didn’t pay for a long time, three months, inventing various excuses to avoid sending the money.

People are normally more trustworthy and absolutely responsible when we trust them in advance. It works everywhere, in all spheres of life. Teachers trust their students in advance, encouraging them. Doctors give their patients hope for the best ending of treatment. Engineers give their qualification; each specialist spends in advance his time, life, and money for education to offer them in advance to others. Even children gift us their smiles as an act of trust.

I mean each one needs to be approved and encouraged, not depending on whether the person is old or young. And such quality comes from human nature. I guess people who lived long-lived their time being satisfied with their life and opened to the world. It is almost proven that acceptance by others has a biological impact on the level of his hormones and neurotransmitters in such a way that it makes him more healthy, strong, vibrant and as a result more self-confident. The more responses from others with the sign "plus" he has, the more super impact it takes.

This is my simple vision. Practical consequences of this are:
- I was with him for a long time because each day I had close tactile contact with him. I told you this earlier. There were hugs all the time, not only when we had sex. It became an automatic act that wasn't easily forgotten. I felt a state-like withdrawal from addiction when it stopped.
- Ahmed receives his dose of satisfaction at his training. I even think he doesn't need sex. Sex is nothing near the orgasm of training. But sex could be a good complement to the practice.
- Sexologists say that sex is something people shouldn't and cannot live without. They earn money saying that and such thoughts have those who believe in that. I met so many men and women who live successfully and happily without a hint of sex. Sex mostly is just a type of caring and helpful tactile contact.
- Poor young men! They really need sex in the age the nature scheduled. I don't know this feeling fully. When his body wants sex, when he sees her or thinks about her and his penis becomes hard and the blood boils and nothing can help here but sex, just for a while. Horrible ... but people are such creatures ... they made the feeling noble and fine, as usual.
- I will die soon without any tactile contacts because I lose my health daily :) I must take a massage treatment, at least. I’ve never seen such close contact with many people that have Ahmed in it. I always felt embarrassed even giving hugs to my female relatives or friends.
- He.. he.. will find a wife easily in his Muslim country near Caspian sea, I have no doubts.
- It is a bit more clear, looking from the position, why martial art sportsmen have such psychological features which researchers describe and why those kinds of sports are popular among the people who are inclined to be leaders or in those societies where the achievements and leaderships are considered as the most preferable or required aims and features in life.
- It’s interesting to know if those people fit this kind of sport or the training itself forms such a type of character. I guess both directions could be right, it depends on...
- To be fully satisfied we need a dose of respect and tactile contact regularly.

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