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Ahmed ****ni
22 July 2020 16:50·
I feel contempt for this society that does not respect its doctors and their paramedical human background.. A society that does not know how to distinguish between health systems and human medical potential..
Medical studies cost more than $ 60000 / year in the USA (public universities), 8000 Euros / year in Germany and around 5000 Euros / year in France. Not counting the years of specialty that absorbs a lifetime.
Medical studies in many countries are only affordable for the rich. Generally, it's a job that is passed on from father to son. And being rich necessarily doesn't mean having common sense and being smart.
In Algeria, medical studies are free, however, they certainly cost a lot of money. Access to his studies is selective or even a level of quality.
I don't like being told about incompetence because medical mistakes exist all over the world. I have had the chance to live part of my life in a very developed country, and believe me, you had to always be vigilant during hospital consultations to avoid any possible mistake.
In Algeria, there is good level despite the limited means. When you have common sense and a reliable analytical approach, you can solve the impossible to solve.
This society that accuses its heroes is bound to chaos and deserves nothing but shame…”

26 july 2020 Ahmed created and logged on two new Safebook accounts, additional to the main one which he visited every day and posted there a lot.
“Why?” guessed Olga.
He downloaded both pages with the same information about himself.
One page had several photographs from his training and he wrote he is a sportsman and engineer. It had no likes.
Another page had only one photo of him from the Japanese lectures process. He remarked on his occupation: scientist. 71 likes had the photo.
Both pages had no any posts except those photos created in the first day of its existence.

The message - 274-
20/07/2020
Hello Ahmed,
Don't know why, I miss you, Ahmed. I miss that Ahmed who was simple and modest and clever and warm, not of that whose complexity is over the top and whose attitudes are such unintelligible that seem too ***...you know I don't love all such "too".
It is always impossible to explain our opinions to a big auditorium of strangers in such a way that all could understand it. But at least they can discuss it with you as if you were a real alive man. For me, you are a dead man. I prefer to think about a black hole, it sounds better.

Yesterday night it had been raining all the night but it didn't make the air fresher and I didn't sleep well due to stuffiness: I was disgusting to myself, so sweaty and wet I was. It was the most uncomfortable night in my daughter's bed: she asked me to change with the bedrooms before her exam because her papa comes home and, she says, he disturbs her by his snoring every time he is sleeping in the room next to her. I never noticed earlier he made any sounds, sleeping. Yesterday he collected berries especially for us at the garden where he is working now. He always was generous when he could. He got money and gave me some money despite the fact that I didn't ask. I never ask. And today is her second, but due to circumstances, the first exam, in English. She told me yesterday she passed all the training tests in 100% and she wondered why they placed such easy tests on the site. It worried her. In one day will be the speaking test in English and then will be her exam in history and, in the end, the exciting time of waiting for results and then the responsible step to apply to a fit University. We have no money for fees for her University and we tried to sell the flat but she refused the idea and that money because she sees we are not able to support the level of money that required big fees each half of year. So she has no choice but to look for a budget place at a university. She can apply for entrance into five universities in 15 faculties maximum. If she will enter Moscow or Saint-Petersburg University, I cannot imagine how I will support her: life there is very expensive. But I allow her to make the choice and we will hope for the better. It is a risky, adventurous move. But it is worth it for the sake of a good education, not a fake one. She is much more clever than me despite I didn't notice in her the love of researching which I had but didn't actualize...I got some orders now, getting to be busy..bye for today

The message - 275-
Hello,  Ahmed.
I keep on my work PC your only ugliest photographs except for a couple of good, that I like very much. One the same person can be ugly and handsome at the same time. It does not depend on someone's taste or some objective reason as the nobility of face features, for example, it depends on the edge and point of view of an observer or observers in a moment of time. It is relative absolutely. It depends on. Because of. There are not any reasons. People always deceive themselves by making any statements about beauty and about very varied other things, I think so today.
Beauty and nobility are different things. Look at a tango dance. Its roots are African and Argentinian or even multinational, nobody knows now exactly. In the beginning, it became popular in dirty drunk pubs for people of the poorest circles of life. It was simple and vulgar...in the imagination of some noble people. Many things (music, literature, dances, pictures and paintings, beliefs and ideas) that in the past were considered vulgar and low, later became noble in the imagination of many people. Why, how do you think?
For me, tango still is often vulgar. It has terrific beauty but it has the sense of a sexual dance, no more. It has not any hidden, sacral hints, such as there are in the Indian, eastern dances or African or other traditional dances because tango lost its deep and noble meaning earlier than the dance became popular. Another situation with ballet. It has become its deep meaning just recently, in mostly the middle of the XX century. Earlier it was a low amusement genre.
Look at African traditional dances. Have you ever seen those old African women who are dancing? They in Africa rarely have young professional dancers. Usually, they are old, fat and not very beautiful. But for me, they are much more beautiful, noble, and pleasant than all those young girls with fine legs and sweet forms that attract you with their charm and nobility of moves. But I suppose that all dances show the soul of a dancer. It is the main aim of dancing. One should see a person in a dance, not to look for the beauty of moves only. I want to see the soul of a home, not its design. I want to see the soul and meaning of the design, not the nobility of forms or materials. I want to see the soul of materials and textures, not the fake of it. And the sexuality of tango I can't call a noble feature, rather graceful movements can be counted as that...I doubt. Do you know that there is a God in African Congo called Tango? They spoiled an African sacral dance.

The message - 276-
Hello, Ahmed.
So, the words: "noble, nobility" . I use the words so often recently that I feel a need to figure out to myself the meaning of that and to make points over some i.
In Russian we translate the words as "благородство, благородный".  In Russian the main meaning of it is "having high moral principles, being honest and selfless", near to English "honor". The second meaning is "elegant and dainty", and one other, that often relates with the second, means similar to "aristocratic" in English.
In English the main meaning is near to "aristocratic". If only we use the word to people as characteristic of his features, it becomes closer to "honor".
The nobility of moves I should understand firstly as characteristic of dance that has an aristocratic restraint. In the good Russian meaning aristocrat is a person from a noble race, and "nobility" are all those features that the person got in the process of studying which is necessary for the proper duty of responsibilities the person has to bear due to its origin.
Honestly, I got that you brought the simplest meaning in your "whose nobility is the grace of the gesture".
I just want to rephrase: "whose aristocracy is the grace of the gesture" and "whose elegance is the grace of the gesture". The second frase sounds as if the water is wet or the "an oil is oily" as we say in Russian. I also used "nobility" with "face features” in that sort of meaning.
The first one. There I feel "aristocracy" is equal "restraint" that is alien to wild feelings and impulsiveness. Someone wanted to say tango's moves are noble because it is not savage, rude, but is the dance of a restrained passion.
Okay Ahmed. It's, might, your vision. For me that video was just cold. I know how a man can look at the woman he loves. Usually it seems his eyes start to be a bit slanted. I want to see in the dance that  the man loves this woman, he wants her. It is the main meaning of the dance and she is fighting with herself, too because it is not good for a woman to be an easy prey.
The video you placed is cold, I feel nothing but disappointing. I made an experiment: I imagined he would touch me with a noble, aristocratic gesture instead of a loving, tender, caring and gentle one. I don't want such a lover, never. Obsession is always impulsive, we cannot control it, we cannot help it, it is never cold or boring. It is fire inside that partners can read easily, even when they are trying to hide it. It is my opinion now.
In short, I prefer nobility in spirit, not in outward signs. Noble, aristocratic gestures or things almost always have a lack of real feelings because it was learnt and so it is artificial. Noble, elegant gestures or things can be really warm and sincere, but sometimes, not by default. So, that is why I didn’t like the video. It is noble superficially.
For me the noble thing is Aikido ideas, for example. But not the motion itself. I read a couple small books by Morihei Ueshiba recently. I found his aims in training and in life wonderful. The moves can be noble in the meaning "elegant", but is such definition important in the art? I want to reread, I feel I missed something somewhere in the book.
Also yesterday I casually read a historical article about France in Algeria. The really nobleman, in main Russian meaning again, was Abd al Kadir. It would be interesting to search the roots of the nobility of the man, I'll find it later.

Makoto 44
25/07
always i think.
i have a plan at work everyday, but not going as planned.
this week very busy my work. I had lunch break monday and tuesday 17o'clock.
but past day, new day has come.
recently i am getting out my customer, i drive a car listen to music.
because relax my mentally.
i think painful situation, i remember fun time.
always i am thinking of you.
i near you my heart.
if you have problem, we try clear problem with us.
have a nice day.
for you.
my short poem.