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12/January/2020 Алжир Tizi Ouzou
Несмотря на то что 65,4% членов клана Ахмеда заслуженно заняты в образовательной и социологической областях, многие близкие родственники живут в удаленных от городов селениях. Но даже и там некоторые из них ведут научную деятельность. Например, госпожа Титоуна, жена его кузена – биолог, работает в школе и при этом сотрудничает с университетами Алжира и Франции, часто поставляет им качественные и необычные образцы флоры и фауны. В эту ее деятельность вовлечены многие ученики деревенской школы и ближайший лагерь ММУ.
Сегодня день особый, сакральный для Амазигов. Ахмед, правда, предпочитал называть свою национальность Масил, потому что корни его и дальние предки – из Ливии. Древний день жертвоприношения – праздник урожая Yennayer – выходной день в Алжире. Нынешний Yennayer начинает 2972 год. 2972 года прошли со дня когда его, Ахмеда, предок стал правителем Египта и основал там свою династию.
Древние Масилы почитали луну и солнце, которым приносили жертвы. Обычай возродили. Жертвоприношения совершаются и сейчас, чаще всего режут петуха.
Вот петуха Ахмед и искал в лесу, потому что дети видели как тот убегал от собаки в ту сторону.

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12/January/2021 Russia
Hello, Ahmed, as usual.
I told you I can command myself: "stop", even if I need to stop thinking about something. It is difficult to stop feeling, but easy to stop thinking. All the time I preserve myself from thinking about the black hole. I feel the state that I would call by the Russian word "пофигизм". Thus I follow the idea "don't take life too seriously" as he advised in one of his last videos. I've eaten this poison he cooked, and I have been breathing the poisoned air being in the black nebulosity all this time I know him. I realized that all the time I was inside the black hole, and I was always there. I lived there all my life in haziness.
Last Sunday one customer came to me and I had to work with her after my working day was over because her order promised to be half of a million rubles, and she was very pregnant. Very pregnant because it was very noticeable. I missed my meeting with my English teacher due to her tactlessness. I think we probably shouldn't say "very beautiful" or "very clever", or other because in fact, it is no less funny than calling somebody "a bit pregnant". 
The fact that we came up with the degrees of beauty or intelligence means that we don't know exactly what it is and we are always lying to ourselves that we know, or that we keep in our minds the image of a gauge for measuring. But the gage is quite different in different heads. They say that the model of the most beautiful woman that with a high degree of probability will be called "beautiful" is the average image of all women in the region the vote would be undertaken. It can mean that each person has in its head such an image -- an average calculation of the particular head. It explains why some people could be so struck by an unusual appearance of a foreigner they have never seen: the brain had not calculated yet the new image. And after the computation, the result is known, and the appearance of a new such foreigner doesn't amaze him or her. I can suppose the same state for all other things in the world. So I can say, we have no defined constant image of beauty. If I look at beauty from such a point of view it is clear what is a taste: it depends on the quality and the predominant number of what one saw, tasted, heard, listened to, tried, and so on.

But what if there exists a law of beauty? It means I can't say "VERY, a bit, a little" in relation to beauty. The thing IS beautiful or IS NOT. It means that we can use rules to create BEAUTY. No matter if those ones are mathematical or have any other logic, they can be repeated. And even the first look at beauty as an average image can be a special case of the laws.

Honestly, I wanted to write something else...but I forgot what it was about...something about him… Oh! I remembered! I found in one book today: "God doesn't bother about if you love it or hate it. Relation of people to him has no meaning. The only moment when God will ignore you and wait for you in silence is when you ignore him. But till you hate (or love) it, you concentrate your attention on him and God will clear you, support, and maintain you. Thus your hatred will transform into Divine love."
I thought it would be fine to hate you for these one hundred messages. Will I be able to find so many noble reasons to hate you? Or will some of them be dirty? I want to try. This is my way to become "more spiritual", according to the advice you, Ahmed, gave people in your last video.