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May 2021 Russia

Через два дня Ольга поостыла и вспомнила, что у нее есть еще другой аккаунт Телеграм и написала Ахмеду:

Ольга:
11:50
Hello, Ahmed.
Block me here, please, too.
All the time I check your status, but I don’t like to be insane.
About your ex-wife: my moral rules don’t allow me to write to her. I hesitate. And, if I didn't do it till today, I think, I’ll never do it, don’t worry. And your life in other areas remained safe, despite I could drink all your blood, being damaged too.
But I plan on sending the printed book to your university.
Farewell, hope the last time
17:32
Okay, don’t block, as you want. I will not write to you here. I am writing in the account you blocked. It is very nice of you. Thanks for the cute place, sweet Ahmed. I hope, writing messages which you will never read is not harassment, is not insulting. I doubt I’ll write to you from this account again. Thank you for your existing. Good bye!
Ah..and I apologize in case if I damaged you somehow for these many months
Ahmed:
18:05
Hello
I won’t block you
Don’t worry
I was just mad two days ago
And
I divorced..Almost two years ago
And, I’m happy being alone
I will not block you anyway
Olga:
18:07
Hi. Be happy.
Ahmed:
18:07
By the way, what kind of book are you talking about?
Olga
18:09
It is not a book. One thousand messages about you, Ahmed.
19:14
I don’t know your address so I’ll send it to your university in your name as a part of my heart. That's all.
Be happy, again.
6 May 2021
Ahmed:
01:03
Usually, the university does not accept mails for individuals. I can give you my mailing address if you want.
Olga:
1:24
as you prefer
6:44
I think it would be dangerous sending the address to strange people. I am strange:)
Also, like you or not, all the time I wait for you. It is unbearable. So, I’ll delete this account right now.
Live, Ahmed, according to your plans and habits and taste. And I will follow my plans.
I understood, at last, you don’t like and don’t respect me.
Be happy.
She blocked both his accounts.
All the days after she was suffering.

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Olga, [06.05.21 20:37] Russia
It is unbearable...why was he so rude? Nobody ever insulted me so much...unbelievable I can't believe people can be so deceptive

Olga, [06.05.21 20:38]
His image on SB and his real behavior are opposite

Olga, [06.05.21 21:37]
Forget. Let him go. His cute face and bright image are a huge void. Deceptive void. A black hole.

Olga, [06.05.21 22:16]
I don't believe he can be such a goat.  He decided to get rid of me so he had played the spectacle. It is not pretty noble, too

Olga, [06.05.21 22:23]
The LAST time I tell myself: FORGET. He is a cretin

Olga, [06.05.21 22:23]
DIXI

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Olga, [06.05.21 00:33]
Hello, black hole!
My vacation goes well. I have about a week left and decided to stay home to save money.
Today I feel like after a surgery that went well, but then got serious complications that were about death. I feel disappointment and astonishment. The surgery itself and the income were rapid, unpredictable, and suffering. The surgeon was evolved in the situation and was cunningly cruel: he wanted to end the situation as soon as possible, was aggressive and persistent in his intentions.
From my childhood, I remember a doctor who couldn't remove my tooth. I had an abscess, my cheek was swollen. I refused to open my mouth for his surgery. Then, he started to choke me and, when I opened my mouth, he pulled out the tooth.
What I found from Ahmed's behavior. He is predictable and clearly read, the first. It would be easy to manage his behavior if one is ready to be attentively cunning. Somebody more cunning than him. I don't want to.
He demands full subordination from his woman, the second.
He is extremely emotional and can't see things clearly when he is in frustration. He easily becomes unstable, engrossed in feeling, and egoistic. He always considers his opinion more important because he is right by a priory.
He demands subordination, but you cannot know his rules. He has his own way and doesn't give you a map.
Ahmed doesn't notice his own hypocrisy. He judges things and people rapidly and superficially, sorting them. He calls it to be picky.
My verdict: he is an unbearable SNOB.
Yesterday half of the day I was busy with my very rich customer. She and her daughter were quite confused, they cannot stop to focus on something one. We had been choosing only handles for two hours but didn't find fit.
In the night I wrote several chunks. Today I have to translate them into Russian and into English and my plan is to publish the next part of the chunks today, for tomorrow I will be ready to go further. I want to come to the most complicated place in my work where I started writing and sending to Ahmed my chunks. I don't know how to meet ends in this circle of messages, and how to organize them. I see it very vaguely.

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Olga, [07.05.21 09:52]
It's bad that I have nobody to talk about this all. People I know prefer to tell me about themselves and are not used to listening to me. Actually, I have no close friends. I wasted my life even here. Relax. You'll die very soon. Nothing is important.

Olga, [08.05.21 15:17]
I miss you, however, goat