Love of my Life

Will you ever understand, hear own heart?

I am in such conditions that I can neither speak nor act.
I want you to be strong, brave, capable of action. But you have tied yourself by hands and feet.

Sometimes I'm calm, just busy with own matters, tasks and creativity. But sometimes, for no reason, I start to feel very hard, I just don’t find a place for myself, I need you so much.

Why didn't you even want to talk? Incomprehensible! Capricious!

But I do not want to condemn or get angry, because I understand that our shortcomings are continuation of our virtues. I love you and accept you the way you are.

Yes, it was difficult for me. Yes, I also wanted to say: enough!
But I didn't say. Do you know why?... because I can't stop loving, I can't stop waiting, because I still want us to meet. Well, here it's my love. It's couldn't be stopped in easy way.

I was already free, I haven't cried for you for long time, and now I cry again... Do you like it? Do you feel good when my heart is aching because of you?

Well, let's say I was not completely right... you offended I know.

I'm sorry.

You are fickle. You flare up and go out again. Your feelings change all the time. And, of course, having a wife and a child does not allow you to act only according to your desires. And the world with all the circumstances, as usual, is testing the power of love... There used to be obstacles. Now there are some new...

How will you regret it later, when we leave this world. I did not write in vain in the song:
"you forgot how you wandered alone in the darkness,
how you prayed for this meeting on the earth.”

You asked God to return us to the  earth and let us meet. You promised to be strong, to overcome everything so that we could spend the time together.

"You can live your life and I can live mine."

Yes, of course, but your life is me, and my life is you.