My teenage thoughts

26.08.21
Those hillarious moments are imprinted in our minds. Does it really mean that if they haven't been shot down, they've never existed? Nope, obviously... But these are words only. The aim is to feel this conception deeply and sympathetically, to designate the 'mindmarks' and implement it as own sewing.

26.09.21
Life is a burning fire! Fire of battle! So let me be a warrior! Though I am not asking anyone's permission. Interest of existence will never fade away, if you dedicate yourself to something many-lives-span period, eternal and independent from epoch! And make union with people of the same soul wave! 'Cause everything you want to know is already incorporated in you, the aim is to reveal it and bring above the layer and behold!

28.10.21
How fast do cats grow! How fast do we grow mentally through our thoughts, which deflect the prism of reality perception. Blah, blah....
Well, pretty kitty grows day by day and it is so-so amazing to obssserve it! Remember her being a scratchy clew of wool with innocent azury eyes. And now I see in front of me a static cat with amber glimmers, who, I am more than sure, will sooner or later become a lady-cat, intelligent, graceful and tender-hearted. Being a patron for little foundling just makes my heart melt and I will never regret making that decision on July the 28th. Once you felt the bound with someone who needs you in this world, you will never be the same unconcious creature.

25.11.21
Rose is beautiful no matter how old it is. It is charming when just at the beginning of life, sylphlike at full blossom. Even when petals are falling off it is no less than ambrosial. Everything and everybody on Earth consists of same by biological structure cells and lives according to universal laws. Therefore we can compare peopleS and roseS just as any other couple of objects on Earth. Rose was my choice because it is recognisable and is usually associated with beauty and virginity. The real value of a person is determined by his state of personal inner meaning of existance which is the real pearl in a seashell. Mistakenly will be to negate your history, 'cause that's your experience, psycological hardening. Rose does not deny it, but on the contrary accepts it and even feels reluctant about it. So, wanna conclude that our physical appearance will be invisibly altering each and every second, but at certain timepoints we will be turning back and contemplating these changes. Only mind remains constant! That means that non-material part of us takes a huge and the same time underestimated place! Sometimes following the logical thread reveals sudden things to us. I adore this feeling!


21.12.21
Contemporary abstract way of thinking is meaningless, what it does creates is illusion only. We can rely on and trust only primary sources of our original nature which are absolutely clear for us but the same time always remain as a mystery...

21.12.21
I am thankful for my illnesses and shortcomings. It helps me to feel,  I mean just sense, and sculpture better version of myself. Despair grows into awareness and self-knowledge, through testing