Wolves and Sheep

TRANSFORMATION

 “Wolves and sheep” situation already was in my American-Russian life.
One of our American bosses was a real Wolf. Everybody tried to avoid dealing with her.  When her main assistant retired, she looked for substitution. It was 2 candidatures-me and recently came worker-soft flexible pleasant Russian woman L. I helped her with work as I was the one, who worked there the longest time. Of course I refused from suggested position, but L. agreed. In a while L. became the boss of our residence. At the beginning she still was the same-kind of Sheep and used my help to settle things
Her motto was «the wolves are full and the sheep are safe» and she manipulated  between American-Russian staff , giving obvious preference to American, consider than we as Russian immigrants should accept without a problem. I did not accept,  observed how she did it and openly pointed to injustice.

Then I made a horrible mistake bringing Real Wolf to our place, getting the wrong idea about her intentions.

WOLF in SHEEP CLOTHING

Who I am myself is not clear to me yet. If to use the “wolves and sheep” metaphors, then things  work that way. I function on Inspiration.  When I’m preoccupied with the idea and I usually meet “ a smart wolf in sheep clothing “ who easily makes me « а sheep being led to the slaughter» I can be easily manipulated...till the Trap is locked Then realizing that I “got into the trap” I transformed into the wolf, often unexpectedly for wolves and start fighting to get freedom.

Those around usually focus only on me getting into trap, being a sheep. They  refuse to see those, who created the trap. And so, they suggest different ways for improvement my life in a trap, which I deserve as created it for myself. That is True, but its only part of the Truth. Another part remains ignored and I start fighting for that ignored part, pointing to Trap creators, becoming already a real dangerous Wolf myself

BEETWEEN TWO WOLVES

Back to our boss, she got into really hard situation. The real Wolf I brought to work had huge appetite for money, so the Boss started to give her my working hours. In my turn, realizing my trap position, I became Fighting Wolf myself. The Boss who usually handled things by “« the wolves are full and the sheep are safe», did not know what to do, being trapped “between two wolves”. She also transformed into Wolf herself. From soft flexible pleasant person she became pretty harsh in order to survive. She decided to get rid from me and started usually dirty administrative game.  Our clients-people with mental issues- were of course involved…

I left the place…Boss died. Real Wolf won and stayed. Her appetite became bigger as now she had only sheep around. One day they called me for help, how she abused clients, which for me is a strong motivation. I decided to fight …..but that is another story…

However that story actually brought me to current situation and here we are again with sheep and wolves

IN ALBANIAN CRIMINAL POLICE

I’m sitting in a cabinet of Criminal Police of our city with pretty girl and we discussed the issue of “Wolves and Sheep”. Her point is simple. Sheep like me produce Wolves as Alvaro. All my objections she just devalued, she had no interest in them, she does not pay attention and she objected with “ When I need …..I do this and that….”….which is True-but its not the Whole Truth. There is another part of it, which she does not want to hear. By her Sheep are na;ve one, who trust other people. On my question “How to deal with people without trusting them?-the answer is simple according to Police Girl-a person should be lawyer, notary. engineer, plumber and so on...himself, in order not to be taken for a ride.

THE LAW about TRUST

And then suddenly she gives me The Law-for the first time in Albania instead of listening person life philosophy in different government organization I got The Real Law, which said

“Acquiring public or private property by presenting false facts or by concealing True Facts, lying or abuse of trust for oneself or  other persons constitutes as a criminal offence of fraud and punishable by imprisonment up to 5 years
The offence when committed in collaboration or more than once is punishable ny imprisonment from 2 till 6 years. When offence brought serious consequences it punished by imprisonment from 5 till 10 years”

Of course for me it was as “ A Ray of Light” in my dark Albanian helly situation. But the Police girl had different reaction. She started to say that what people say is not valuable. I tried to object, that I have Facts and the Motivation is important. His Motivation vs my Motivation(I watch detectives all the time), but the girl again switched to her favorite “wolves and sheep” subject.

I realized that my voice raised trying to bring my point up, trying to be heard…..so I shut myself up and tried to make myself a sheep especially that she agreed to create a case on the basis of Fact of fake translator and me signing only Albanian contract. That I could convince her, bringing up different opinions of different people of status. That Fact cost me $300 and a few months dealing with local lawyer, who did everything to get me to local court, caring about her friends- a fake translator and the notary .
Local people reaction to that was “What do you expect, here people know each other and nobody would like to hurt a friend or relative.” Understandable, but still …
Where is solution for me?
-Hire the lawyer from Tirana
-Where is the money for it as I’m being homeless
Seeing there is no solution, people start to be angry at me
-“How could you trust lawyer? How could you trust notary?”… as if it was me who created a Crime. But they really see things that way. Usually we end up with mutual negativity and no solution
I am creating solution for my Situation myself and alone with no any support
I try to create something without “wolves and sheep”.
but with  something from “human attributes” , something based on moral and forbidden Dostoevsky.
Its a dangerous path
Yes, but there is no other choice