Understanding

Now wanna say a lot, too much... I feel connected to a powerful energy generator and yes, this  is really so because if to see LOVE and WORLD from energy's perspective, than LOVE is just God's energy... creative power... source and cause of everything and the WORLD is the field where this energy shows itself in different forms and connections. On divine level everyone is connected to everything and "madly in love" with everyone|everything.

And also LOVE is ability to understand another person's needs and reality... as I do for you. You see these pictures mean nothing to me but extra job in my very busy life. But this is important for you. And you are important for me. So I have to do them for you to make you feel happier.

But I also have needs and desires which should be satisfied. Harmony in relations exists only when both sides are equal otherwise dis-balance in one side will destroy the union. Yea, there is the union... surprised? we are bound by this powerful energy. You may call it "madly in love" or anything but it's just energy bound which exists between us.

I tried to stop and then realized that you stayed somewhere here anyways... that I had been waiting something from you anyways... I realized that I have to bear either your presence or your absence, in both cases I have to be patient and wise. So I just let it go as it goes.

There was a beautiful room you were sitting at, reminds me about Christmas cause we usually decorate our places in such way on these holidays but as about your face - I can't see it clearly cause you were sitting far from cam with windows behind you so your face were in shadow. Well it's same as those pictures I  sent  yesterday, without clear focus, you didn't like it, right? Here is the same story. I need to see you clearly, to see you close, to see your eyes, to read their expression, I need normal human chat about everything as close friends do... because if you insist on your right to see my body, I insist on my right to see your soul... cause it's your soul which I love in you, Aamir.

I'd like to tell you about dreams, too.

Dreams are not something unreal for me. It's another kind of reality. We have a lot of "bodies" (seven, probably... it's the name of family in Russian "7 I", but in fact the word is not about family, the word says about human being's design), so while our physical body is resting at night, we are active in other dimensions with our other 'body' or bodies.

For our physical reality those dimensions, those dreams are like plans - may come true or may be not, depends of variety on different facts, wills and obstacles.

So dreams are another kind of reality for me and meeting with you, spending time together there feels so valuable and makes me happy like real meeting. Of course there are some plots inside... I remember them mostly after awaking in details, moreover I used to write them down. I would love to retell them to you...

Wanna talk in normal way, not to be in hurry... looking into your eyes... sitting next...

While you're making plans, collecting your strength and waiting for something, life is just passing by. We are not staying in this world endlessly...

Well I'm really grateful we had our time on the Earth. Everything we managed to do here, has chance to be continued in Eternity. Everything we manage to do in our life-time has chance to exist forever...